Love is the best feeling anyone can experience specially when it’s your first love but what about the heartbreak and pain that comes along with it. 


Dear dairy,

Where shall I start? I wish I was a poet to express my feelings as it is,how I feel about him at my heart. It’s been a year now that I’m in love with him yet i cannot muster up the courage to tell him that. I don’t know why but when it’s about him the words don’t come easily like I wished they would. you know, there are three little words those eight letters that hold so much significance, the words that I associate with him completely, the phrase that I’m so tempted to tell him but am too scared to because I’m afraid that it might scare him off, it might ruin our friendship.

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. That one person means the world to you. For me that one person has always been him.

They sat all the emotions which have been gifted to us by the God are an outcome mixture of is weird yet beautiful it’s just the craziest emotion anyone can ever experience and I am in love with him sweetie.

He is just so amazing not only his body it’s the way he thinks. The way he frames the sentences make him admirable, for he never abuses or uses negative words. I don’t know whether he seems a thing like perfection to anybody else but for me he is perfect. He is kind of guy every girl would desire.

Oh god! I lost the track of time again. Mummy will be back from her work soon i need to rush.

Signing off for today sweetie,



Hey sweetie,

I’m back again but this time I’m not going to write about how much i love him or how i hope that he is in love with me too, this time it’s about how it feels when you get your heart broken. Yes i lost my first love and you know what’s the worst? I still love him. Even after knowing that his heart belongs to someone else i still can,t stop loving him. I still think of how much i loved talking to him. I still feel those butterflies in the pit of my stomach when he smiles at me. I still replay the peices of our conversation where we laughed at something funny he said or did i still wish he was mine. Everything’s just

the same expect for the fact that all of these things hurt me now.

I guess that’s the thing with first love sweetie. you can never forget them they are the only one who get your whole untouched heart. They are the ones who get all the love you have stored and they get to keep it forever.

I don’t know what the future holds for us I don’t know whether i will fall for someone or not but i know he will always hold a special place in my heart.

Signing off again,

Goodbye sweetie