Author: Shubhangi

  • Waiting for you

    Waiting for you

    Two best friends make a pact but what happens when one of them is determine to ruin another one’s every relationship?

     

    “You don’t even remember the color of your shirt that you wore yesterday and you expect me remember what I said a week ago?” Samantha was arranging her bookshelf. Troy jumped on the bed. Settling his head on her pillow, he said, “Fine, then let me remind you. You said you will complete my assignment if and only if I walk Snowball for a week”

    Samantha shot him a death glare, “You are making it up. I can see it”

    He looked away and picked up the book kept on night-stand. He pretended to read it. She hit his leg saying, “Troy, shoes down”

    He sat up with his shoes on ground. Snowball, came running to him and he picked up small Maltese in his arms. She smiled when Snowball started licking his face. He asked, “What is wrong? You are stress-cleaning”

    She sighed and sat next to him, “Ken, he is leaving”

    He squeezed her hand saying, “It is fine. People come and go”

    She faced him, hugging her legs and her chin resting on her knees. She look upset, “But he was the only guy in school who liked me. Others just…ignore me”

    He thought for a moment and then replied, “Let’s make a pact”

    Her eyes met his. She asked, “What?”

    “If by 35th, we don’t get anyone, we’ll marry each other”

    She giggled, “What makes you think that I will marry you?”

    He rolled his eyes, “I am not dying to marry you either. I am just giving a suggestion”

    She nodded, “Okay, twenty years. I am on. Done.”

    He picked the notebook and scribbled something on it. She peeked but he hid it. After he finished, he signed it and gave it to her. She laughed saying, “An agreement. Are you crazy?”

    “There should be some proof. Now sign this quickly. I need this so you don’t back out”

    She narrowed her eyes, “I get it. You think you will never find a girl who can cope up with your madness. So, you are dragging me in this?”

    He shook his head, “No, I am doing this because I know you will not find anyone who will not get bored with you”

    “You think I am bore.”

    He nodded with a smile, “But I don’t get bored when you talk. Plus, I am very good with kids”

    “How can you say that?”

    He pointed at Snowball saying, “Look at him, he loves me”

    She signed the paper after giving a thorough reading and adding some more things. She gave it to him still laughing thinking that it was a silly thing. He folded the paper and stuffed it in his pocket saying, “Now, we have a deal. If we are still single till our 35th birthday, we’ll get married”

    She got on her feet, “Okay, now drive me over to Ken’s house. I need to say goodbye to him”

    He asked, “What do you see in this Ken guy? He is small, wears specs and talks all geeky”

    She yelled, “Hey, I am also geeky”

    He gave a flying kiss, “You are cute geeky”

    She laughed before hitting him with pillow. He grabbed another pillow and started defending himself.

     

    Five years later,

    “Dylan, this is Troy. And Troy, this Dylan, the guy I told you about” Samantha introduced her new college-mate to Troy. Troy had his eyes fixed on Samantha, who had met him after long time. After the high school, they had went on separate ways but late night calls and emails kept their friendship alive. He noticed that she had lost her school look and turned into a beautiful women. When he looked at Dylan, a sudden urge to punch him rose in his heart when Dylan held Samantha’s hand. Troy faked a smile and stretched out his hand for handshake. Dylan shook his hand but a firm handshake turned into a tight one. Samantha whispered to Troy, “I told you I have a huge crush on him. Isn’t he cute?”

    Troy nodded as they slipped in their chairs in the restaurant. Dylan said, “Troy, I heard that you are studying photography. But I have heard that it is not of a good career choice.”

    “Dylan, you are doing medical, right?” Troy asked, even though he knew that answer. Dylan nodded. Troy continued, “So, at least I will get to have a real fun instead of studying where the shit comes from and goes. Basically, I would be capturing beautiful moments while you will be dealing with problems like why this is not working and that not working?”

    Troy gave a fake smile before taking a sip of the beer in front of him. Samantha sensed the tension. She laughed, “So, let’s talk about sports. Is there any game on TV? Isn’t it hot in here? Why am I sweating so much?”

    Dylan turned to Samantha and said, “Sorry Sam, I have to leave now. I can’t handle immature people. I’ll see you in class”

    He walked away. Troy was still drinking the beer. Samantha hit his arm saying, “What the hell is wrong with you? I told you I liked that guy and he kind of liked me too”

    Troy replied, “I am sorry and I am not sorry because I will never ever tolerate someone giving me career advice specially someone who still wear suspenders and has an eighties hair”

    She protested, “He looks good in suspenders”

    “He looks pathetic in it” Troy replied with a smile. He narrowed his eyes, “Say the truth”

    She sighed, “Truth to be told, he looks like an old man who had got stuck in time”

    She started laughing when he raised his eyebrows. She took the drink from his hand and emptied the glass in one go. He commented, “Wow, you have become a drinker. That is nice”

    She laughed, “Thanks”

    He took her hand saying, “When will you stop falling for stupid guys?”

    “Like you don’t go out with stupid girls?” she asked leaning over the table with her elbows resting on the edge of table. He gave a laugh, “Well there had been few but I don’t bring every girl to meet you. Just choose wisely because there are lots and lots of idiots in this world”

    “And what if I didn’t find any good ones?”

    “You have me as a backup plan. The idiot who is less annoying and geeky” he laughed raising the empty glass to her. She shook her head smiling. He used to adore her smile. Lying to her has become a habit. He can’t say he had not been over her since they first met and it was hard to accept that to himself.

     

    Four years later,

    “An artist? Are you crazy? Don’t you know they are…a little bit out of their mind?” Troy said while looking at the painting. He was standing in the exhibition that Samantha dragged him to. She was searching for her boyfriend while he gave some bad comments to each and every painting.

    On every comment, Samantha would roll her eyes and hit him in his arm. He said, “You know, I am going to judge him all the way, so why don’t you stop hitting me? My arm is already getting numb now”

    She finally saw him. Pulling a dark haired guy suited up in expensive clothes by her side, she introduced, “Troy, this is Edward.”

    Edward gave a big smile and shook hands with Troy saying, “You must be Troy. She talks a lot about you”

    Troy nodded plastering a smile on his face. He looked around saying, “You have big crowd over here. Your paintings are really…artistic”

    “Yeah, crowd is loving them.” Edward nodded while taking out sanitizer from his pocket. Troy eyed at Samantha with suspicion. She bit her lip saying, “Edward has Germo-phobia”

    Troy tried to control his laughter. Edward noticed someone calling him, so he said, “I’ll just be back”

    He walked to other side of room. When he left, Troy burst in laughter which caused people to look at him. Samantha covered his mouth and made him shut up. She asked, “What? Why are you laughing?”

    He had tears from laughing so hard. He asked, “So, how does he paint… with gloves on or covering his whole body in a bubble-wrap?”

    She replied, “He has a unique style. Don’t you dare say anything about his works now! He is renowned artist.”

    He couldn’t stop laughing, “So, when he touches you, he uses sanitizer… every time?”

    She rolled her eyes to his question. Finally, she let out a deep breath saying, “And mouthwash after we kiss”

    He hugged her saying, “Oh, poor baby. How did you survive a year with him?”

    She hugged him tightly, “It has been a tough year. You left me and I got stuck with an idiot”

    Pulling back, she acted wiping invisible tears off her cheek to which he laughed. He asked, “Want to get out?”

    “Desperately” she nodded grabbing his hand.

     

    Five years later,

    “He proposed Troy” Samantha screamed on the phone looking at the big diamond ring in her finger. Troy who had been in Africa for couple of year had finally come back. He said, “Congratulations, but you didn’t tell me it was getting serious”

    “I don’t know when it got to this point” She replied. He tried to control his feelings, “You will not introduce me to him?”

    “Of course, I will. Tomorrow, why don’t you join us for lunch?” she asked. He answered, “Perfect. I’ll meet you there”

    Saying this, he ended the call. Sitting on the edge of his bed, he wondered what was wrong with him. Why did he feel sad when he supposed to be happy for his best friend?

     

    “Jake here, nice to meet you. I heard you have been the constant man in Sam’s life” Jake, the guy with chocolate colored hair and a pleasing smile said. Troy nodded with smile, “Yeah, she likes to juggle a lot”

    Samantha laughed and held Jake’s hand more tightly.

     

    As the lunch ended, Jake went to get the car. Samantha turned to Troy asking, “What do you think?”

    He shrugged, “I didn’t like him”

    She asked, “Why? What’s wrong with him?”

    He shrugged, “Well, I don’t think it is of any use because you love him”

    Her voice raised and her arms crossed, “What is it?”

    “He’s just…”

    “What” she interrupted. He felt guilty now. He looked at ground and said, “He’s perfect…but he is not me. I know you think that pact was an idiotic thing but for me it is means that I will have you forever in my life. Dylan, Rufus, Edward, Corner, Klaus, I tried to get rid of them for your sake.”

    When she didn’t answer, he looked up. He noticed that she had tears in her eyes. She said, “I know. All these years, I thought you would never say that. And when I finally gave up on you, you said it”

    He asked, “Do you?”

    Wiping her tears, she replied, “Since the day, I made the pact. Why do you think I asked for your opinion on every guy? I knew you would find a flaw in them and give me one more reason as to why you are better than them. That silly, stupid pact that made me think a future with you.”

    He chuckled, “I did that when I suggested that”

    Fiddling with the ring, she said, “I think I should return this to him. It is a really expensive ring”

    He pulled her in a hug saying, “I missed you, Sam”

    She hugged him tighter, “Me too, Troy”

    Pulling back, he asked, “So, six more years and then we’ll be together”

    She titled her head to side which he imitated with a smile, “Why wait for six years?”

    “Are you sure?”

    “Never been so sure in my whole life” she replied leaning in to kiss his cheek. He replied, “Okay, instead of six years, six months?”

    She nodded with a smile.

  • Misery called Life

    Misery called Life

    Not every time a boy falls for girl. Sometimes, life brings them together for a different purpose.

     

    She wiped her tears. Taking one bottle of champagne in one hand, she dragged the box out of her apartment half-drunk. Pressing the top floor button in elevator, she smiled through tears looking at the reflection. Tossing her hair back, she dragged the box to terrace. She stumbled and started laughing. Getting back on her feet, she poured the champagne over the box and smashed the bottle on ground. She lit the matchstick and set the box on fire. She was staring at the wedding gown that was starting to turn from a fairy dress to rags. She took out her engagement ring from her finger and kept it in her pocket. The fire had died down. It had turned each and every memory of him into ashes. She wiped her tears and swore she would not her heart to anyone because she had enough.

     

    He kicked the door of his apartment and started unbuttoning his shirt. Crashing on the bed, he stared at the ceiling. Tears were rolling down his face. He missed her face, her smell and her being in this apartment. He never imagined his life without her. He ran his fingers through his messy hair. It had been days he had washed them. He sat up and took out her photo from his pocket. Everyone in the office, his family, his friends, almost everyone in the city had asked him to move on. Being the only kid, his parents were a lot worried about him. He swore he had no more strength to love someone again.

     

    He placed flowers on the grave saying, “Hey, I know it has been a year but I don’t know why I can’t think about anyone else except you”

    He sat on ground with his arms wrapped around his legs. He continued, “It is not like I haven’t tried. I tried going out with one of the girls that mum set me up with”

    He heard someone say, “Biggest lesson, 90% times blind dates never work out”

    He turned around and saw a girl sitting on a grave. She had a beer bottle in her hand. She laughed, “You should try going to any club or any coffee house. You can find girls there who (hiccup) can make your night”

    He looked over at the grave and asked, “You are also visiting?”

    She glanced at the name on grave and shook her head, “Mr. Victor Reed…ah, interesting name. An optimistic guy with a ray of hope in our lives… Well, I hope they paid someone for those words”

    She laughed. He asked, “So, what are you doing in a graveyard?”

    “Certainly not what you are doing. I am not crying over who died and are resting in peace”

    “Then what is it?”

    She walked closer to him and sat on the grave on the side. She half-smiled, “I am here to see what arrangement they have for people who are dying inside”

    “What?”

    She rolled her eyes, “Oh poor guy. You don’t understand the most complex philosophy of life. Some people…they die and go away from all the problems that life offers. They are in peace. But… (Hiccup) some die on inside. They are walking around like zombies. Eating, drinking, sleeping and doing everything like a normal person but with no feelings. They have a…. (Hiccup) black hole in them. Nothing comes out of them”

    He asked, “Are you always this crazy or just when you are drunk?”

    “Hey, I am talking sense right now. Now…”

    She stood up, “I have to go and search for my grave”

    He gave a small laugh when she walked away. He was looking back at her grave when he heard a noise. Turning around, he saw she was nowhere to be seen. He walked over to the path she was on. He found her in the pit which had been dug for a grave. He sighed, “Are you okay?”

    She didn’t answer. He asked in a high voice, “Are you okay there? What is your name?”

    “Lennox”

    He sighed with relief. He asked again, “Are you okay, Lennox?”

    She replied, “Never been better. I think I found my grave”

    He outstretched his arm saying, “Come let me pull you out.”

    She took his hand and climbed out laughing. He asked, “Why are you searching for a grave?”

    Taking last sip of her beer, she replied with big smile, “Because I am dead. And I don’t want to be a zombie anymore”

    She eyed at her hand which he was still holding. When he noticed, he let go. She started walking in opposite direction saying, “I think you should search for yourself too if you too feel like zombie.”

    Half turning, she smiled, “But don’t get near me, I don’t want to hear your heartache story”

    She walked ahead a little. Then stopped and turning again, she asked, “Are you coming? I don’t think she wants to listen to you. Let her sleep peacefully, Ben”

    He nodded and started following her. They reached a small diner. He commented, “You know you are really insensitive”

    She cocked her head to side, “I told you. I am dead. I have no feelings”

    She put her hair at back in a messy bun by looking at the glass door. She had a big smile on her face. He said, “That is weirdly big smile.”

    Her lips curled in the normal smile and looked at him. He nodded. A bell rang when they entered the diner. She went up to the counter and smiled at the lady. She smiled back, “Hey Lennox, I am so sorry to hear about the wedding”

    She nodded, “Yeah, I am also so sorry to hear that he is still breathing”

    She swirled on her heels and went to sit on the table in corner. He followed her asking, “What wedding?”

    She leaned in with her elbows on the table, “I don’t think I have to share my personal details with a stranger, Ben”

    He was confused, “Who is Ben?”

    She shrugged, “Ah, he was just a know-it-all in our school, always depressed about not getting one mark when he used to get 99. I hated him…nosy…now that I remember, he had this weird thing about his hair and dressing sense. Like, he wore a particular color every day. For example, you are wearing all black.”

    He relaxed back saying, “Well, I am not Ben. My name is Nick. And I like wearing black. I has its own aura”

    She sighed and looked around. After some time, she asked, “Nick, so tell me why you are so depressed?”

    He didn’t reply. She noticed he was circling his finger around his ring finger and staring in the blank space. She asked, “Wife?”

    He saw her in confusion. She laughed, “You didn’t look that old to me”

    Cupping his face, she pulled him closer and said, “Nah, not that old. Recently married?”

    He replied, “None of your business”

    She shrugged. A waitress came up to them and took their orders.

     

    When they finished their food, she stood up saying, “I should leave. And don’t worry, she had put this on my card”

    Saying this she left. He put his head on the table, covering it with his arms. Then, waitress came up to him and said, “Sir, dessert for you”

    He looked up saying, “But I didn’t order dessert”

    She smiled, “Yes, but Lennox always has dessert but today, she left without it. So, it is for you”

    He smiled and took the apple muffin. It had been days since he had smiled and eaten a full meal.

     

    The bell rang when he entered the diner. He had been visiting this small place for weeks in the hope to see her again. No, he didn’t like her but there was something in her which made him want to meet her again. Sitting in the same booth, he ordered his usual. On every ring, his eyes would dart at the door but he would end up disappointed.

    His eyes flashed up when someone slid in the chair in front saying, “Hey Ben”

    He stared at her. She rested her chin on her palms and stared back. He replied, “I am Nick”

    “Fine, Nick. What brings you here? Don’t tell me you have fallen in love with or anything”

    He chuckled, “Love, you”

    Her smile faded away. She sat up straight and her tone went serious. She asked, “What do you want?”

    He interlocked his fingers and leaned in saying, “I don’t know. I just thought maybe two broken pieces and help each other in some way?”

    She asked raising her eyebrows, “What do you want help in?”

    He sighed, “I have to meet my parents who are pestering me about letting go. I just want you to… be how you are in front of them and show how much better Gina was. Like annoy them and everything…”

    She rolled her eyes and walked out. He paid the bill, rushing out to follow her. He asked, “So, are you going to help me? I can pay you if you want”

    “Why can’t you hire an actress? They would do a better job than me”

    “No, you are a natural. You are crazy and insensitive person”

    She didn’t answer. He asked, “Oh, don’t tell me your feelings got hurt. You only said you were dead from inside. You don’t have feelings or anything.”

    She took out a cigarette from her pocket and lit it. Blowing out a smoke, she said, “But that doesn’t give you right to dig the body again and again. It disturbs the life”

    She coughed. He asked, “Why are you smoking of it doesn’t suit you”

    “I have just started it. It will take time to develop as habit” she replied. He questioned with his eyes. She smiled, “Trying to make this body disappear from this world as soon as possible. And smoking, my friend is the best way to exploit this body”

    He chuckled. She walked ahead saying, “Pick me up at seven”

    “But I don’t even have your address” he argued. She nodded, “Good point. Diner here. Seven o’clock. And please wear something which doesn’t say “I am a very sad person”. Please”

    He nodded with a smile.

     

    “Shouting was a little over-board, don’t you think?” Nick asked passing the bottle of vodka to Lennox. She nodded putting on her thinking face, “Yeah, I thought so too. But that ruining the $50000 carpet was the best thing, I think. I thought your mother was going to blow me up in flames when I vomited on it. ”

    He started laughing. Their legs were dangling down with whole city under them. Sitting on the rooftop, they were looking at Nick’s parents’ house down the road. The lights were still glowing in the apartment. She passed the bottle back to him after taking the sip, “So, what do you think, what would be happening in there? Thinking about giving you an intervention about how bad that girl is for you and all sort of stuff”

    He swallowed the vodka, “They would probably will wondering what on earth I saw in you. Mom would be concerned that maybe I have rushed in everything and dad, well dad being dad will be making the drinks to calm himself down”

    She started laughing. For a moment, he was surprised. Her laugh seemed contagious. He started laughing too. She glanced at him saying, “Thank you”

    “For what?”

    “For making me laugh like this after a long time”

    He shrugged, “Just don’t fall in love with me”

    She rolled her eyes, “Oh please, love and you…”

    Shaking her head, she took the bottle back and filled her mouth full. She shivered and started rubbing her arms. He asked, “You cold?”

    She didn’t answer. He took the bottle, “I am not going to take off my jacket.”

    She laughed, “I don’t need that anyways”

    Snatching the bottle from his hand, she emptied it and then gave it back. He stared at the bottle and then at her. His eyes met hers. She asked, “Is something wrong?”

    He shook his head, “No, just wondering what the hell happened that ruined you so much?”

    She giggled. He started getting up but she pulled him back saying, “Now, it is my turn to ask you for help”

    He nodded, “Okay, so what is it that you want from me?”

    She outstretched her hand saying, “Be my friend and make me laugh like this. Suddenly, zombie is needing some feelings”

    He smiled, “Fine”

     

    A month passed, Lennox was walking down the street smoking her fourth cigarette of the day. She coughed again. Suddenly, she bumped in someone. She looked up and her face went white as sheet. She was going to walk away when he said, “Hi Lennox”

    She sighed, “Yeah, hi Dan”

    He was about to hug her when she held her hands in air. He stepped back. She said, “How about we skip these greetings and just go on our separate ways?”

    He nodded, “I was about to call you some day for…the bills are coming on my address”

    “Fine I’ll inform them that it is not my address” she said as she started walking ahead but he got in her way. He said, “Lennox, you know I made a rational choice for both of us”

    “Both of us or just you. You know Dan, I seriously don’t have time for all of your excuses. You ran from the wedding and that is all that matters. When you saw responsibility, you panicked and just… (Snapping her fingers) whoosh! Vanished like nothing happened between us and you don’t know me”

    He shook his head, “That is not the reason. You were just…you were not…”

    She interrupted, “Dare you blame it on me.”

    She took out the ring from her pocket and gave it to him, “Take your stupid ring and don’t ever come back. Also, try being a man instead being a coward”

    Saying this, she walked away.

     

    “Lennox didn’t come?” asked the waitress. Nick replied with smile, “She might come tomorrow. She said we have to meet here”

    The waitress went away when she was called from another booth. Nick was coming since three days. They were supposed to have their regular meet of week. He glanced at his watch and giving up was going to walk out when he bumped into her. She asked, “Really, given up so fast?”

    He wrapped his arm around her neck as they started walking. He asked, “What took you so long?”

    She shook her head, “Nothing as such”

    She took out the cigarette but coughed. He noticed that the tissue turned red. He asked, “What is that?”

    She replied with smile, “My prayers being answered”

    He was confused. Lighting the cigarette, she said, “How about we go to some place special?”

    He shrugged. They ended up in the graveyard. Sitting by Gina’s grave and placing the yellow roses on it, she said, “Tell me your story. I love listening to stories”

    He laughed and looking over at the stone, he started, “I met her in high school. We hated each other but when we ended up in same college, we started sharing notes and assignments. Soon, we started falling for each other. Got married at young age. One day, she was returning back from work, she met with an accident. I never thought I would have to live a life without her”

    She wrapped herself around his arm and said, “Hey, you can do this”

    He raised his eyebrows and stared at her. She asked, “What?”

    “Tell me why the wedding was cancelled. I think I can handle it now.”

    She adjusted herself by unwrapping herself. She laughed, “Well, my love-story is actually a fake-story. I met him in a party. Ended up together in one bed, had fun. We continued seeing each other and soon started dating. I thought I have got what is described by the poets and authors about love. It was soon becoming a fairytale but…”

    She coughed again. Wiping off the blood from her mouth, she continued, “I got sick. He thought it might be something small but…it was major thing. We were supposed to get married but when he got to know that I am not going to be alive more than a year but he thought it is better to call off the wedding than be married for just for few months. Also, I became expensive for him. If I quote him, “Len, honey I don’t think we will work. I want to be with someone with whom I can spend my forever”. In other words, you are already dying, don’t ruin my life too.”

    “What an idiot! A forever doesn’t always mean fifty or sixty years together. A forever can last for few months too.” He wrapped his arms around her, pulling her in a hug. He continued, “Now, being your friend, I can say he made a huge mistake”

    She laughed through tears, “Oh, come on he became a practical person. He knew that this crazy girl will not last long so why bother looking after a sick person”

    He raised his hands, “Sorry for saying this but your ex-fiancé was a…”

    She closed his mouth before he could say. She said, “Don’t waste your energy on a person that doesn’t deserve it. Plus, we are in graveyard. It is not ethical to use bad words here”

    He removed her hand saying, “That rule applies in church”

    She rolled her eyes and started staring at the distance. He asked, “What is it?”

    She shook her head, “Nothing, just today. I am having this weird feeling sitting here. Something is not right”

    He replied, “That is because you are sober. Normally, you come here drunk”

    She laughed, “Point”

    She turned to him saying, “You know, my parents…they don’t even know about me”

    He furrowed his brows, “Why didn’t you tell them?”

    She shrugged with a smile, “Just didn’t want them to leave me like Dan. They will also want to shrug off the responsibilities.”

    “Are you crazy? They will not do that. They love you” he said taking out his phone. Giving the phone to her, he said in his soft deep voice, “Just call them. I am sure they would want to spend their time with you”

    She started dialing her mother’s phone. She smiled when her mother picked up. Her sweet voice used to transport her to her childhood.

    “Hello”

    “Hi mom. It is Len.”

    “Hi sweetie. Everything okay? How’s life going?”

    “Umm, it is good but it going to end soon”

    “What do you mean? Lennox, this is not funny”

    “Umm, actually, I have been hiding this from you guys. Mom…I have only few months left. I didn’t want to bother you guys, that is why I didn’t tell you”

    “You are an idiot. I’ll tell your father about this and we both will be coming down there.”

    “Umm, mom”

    “Yeah, sweetie”

    “I love you”

    “I love you too”

    She ended the call. Wiping her tears, she said, “I wanted to talk to you about something really important”

    He took her hands in his asking, “What is it?”

    She replied, “Just write something crazy on my headstone, please. I don’t want a loving daughter, a good friend, blah, blah, blah”

    He laughed, “Okay, but you have to stop smoking first”

    She nodded, “I was thinking about that this morning when cute doctor asked me not to smoke”

    He hugged her tightly saying, “I can’t believe I will lose you too”

    She rolled her eyes, “Don’t tell me you fell in love with me in front of Gina’s grave”

    He pulled back, “Of course not. She will rise from grave if I say it to you in front of her. She was really possessive of me”

    She laughed and started walking. He shrugged off the dirt from his jeans and following her, reached the grave she chose. She titled her head and then observed the names around it. She asked, “What do you think? How are my neighbors going to be?”

    He read every name and described the personality of each of them. She had started laughing when he said that the Mr. Wobble will definitely be her type if she is willing to date older people. He held her hand, “Maybe, granted my luck, I can be one of your neighbor too”

    She asked, “Wouldn’t Gina mind?”

    He shrugged with a smile, “Ah, I think she will be furious but I’ll handle her”

    “Come let’s leave. I have to meet the cute doctor” she said walking towards the gate.

     

    Hearing the sirens, she said smiling through her bleeding lips, “An easy way than dying in hospital”

    He had pieces of glass sticking in his face. Still managing a smile, he said, “Now I think we’ll be neighbors”

    The world faded away for both of them. They were lying in Nick’s car unconscious after the crash that happened because of the rain.

     

    Sometimes, people don’t be with each other because they love them, they be with each other because they understand each other; they know what a suffering is and want to share whatever happiness they have left in them with each other.

  • You were by my side

    You were by my side

    He came across her secret. Is he going to be with her or leave her?

     

    “I am so sorry to cancel again. Maybe next time…” she said on the other side of the phone. He hung up the call with a long face. She had cancelled their date fifth time. He had been wondering what she had been hiding in these three months relationship. He went to sit back on the couch. He thought if it was his job that intimidated her or it was anything else. Glancing at his uniform that was kept by the bed, he sighed.

     

    Finn had fallen asleep on couch when he heard the doorbell. Switching off the television, he clicked open the door. He was shocked to see her soaking wet. Her clothes were different. She wore a one-piece with a glittery headband. He saw her bruised arms and legs which were covered in glitter. She was shivering. When she gazed up, he saw tears in her eyes. He opened his arms as she hugged him tightly crying. He rubbed her back saying, “Hey, Jane. Chill. You are okay”

    She started crying burying her face in his chest. She murmured, “I am scared, Finn. They’ll kill me”

    He made her sit on couch and went in kitchen to get some water. Covering her with a blanket, she wrapped his arm around her to comfort her. She put her head on his shoulder but her hands were still shivering from fear. He asked, “Do you want to talk about it?”

    She started, “I am sorry that I kept this a secret that…”

    He completed, “But you are a stripper?”

    She nodded, “I have been doing this job for like a year now. But today…”

    “What happened?” he asked rubbing her arms. She continued, “I was working as usual. A guy came up to me for a private dance so I went in one of the chambers. But…as we walked in, someone came from behind and shot him. Then, he tried to grab me with my hair and took me outside. He warned me if I said something, they’ll get me killed. There were many people Finn. He sat in a van which had five more people. I don’t want to die”

    He nodded, “And I will not let them touch you”

    She grabbed the hem of his shirt saying, “Please let me stay with you tonight”

    He nodded as she leaned against him. Gradually, she fell asleep. He caressed her cheeks looking at her bruises. He was mad at her for not telling him anything about this secret life of hers but he also felt protective of her. He was mad himself that he was not there to protect her; he was not there when she decided to get this job.

     

    In the morning, he slipped from the couch and rested her head on the cushion. Suddenly, she got up shouting, “No”

    He held her tightly saying, “Hey, it is no one”

    She hugged him, “Finn, he killed him and I didn’t do anything”

    He shook his head, “It was not your fault. Come let’s get to freshen up”

    She nodded and went in the washroom. Finn gave her his old t-shirts which were over-sized for her. Tying her hair in a bun, she sat on the bed while he made her breakfast. She asked, “Are you not supposed to go to work? There is murder that you should solve”

    He replied entering with the breakfast, “I think I have a more important job here”

    She asked, “And that is?”

    “To take care of you. I can see that you are still in shock” he replied giving a smile. She smiled. It was first time he had seen her smile since last night. He said, “You don’t have to worry about anything. I am here with you”

    Just then, the doorbell rang. He can see the fear in her eyes. She looked at him but he assured her that there was nothing to worry about. He got up and opened the door. A few officials stood there with their arms crossed. Finn asked, “Is everything okay?”

    One of them with a mustache replied, “Do you know anyone named Jane White?”

    He nodded, “Yes, she is my girlfriend.”

    Another one asked, “Is she here?”

    Jane walked out of the bedroom saying, “Yes, I am”

    The mustache guy said, “Ma’am we believe you saw a murder last night. You have to come down to station with us”

    Finn interrupted showing them his badge, “Officer, I am also an official and I know how this works but she is still in shock. I’ll bring her down to police station for statement when she gets okay”

    They nodded and left. As he closed the door, she burst in tears, “No, they said if I saw anything, they’ll kill me”

    He went up to her and held her shoulders, “No one is going to do anything. Let the police catch them. We just have to do a simple thing. We go to police station, tell them what happened and get back home. Simple”

    She shook her head, “It is not that simple. If they find out, I told police, they’ll…”

    “…Kill you. Yeah, I heard that hundreds times now. Come on Jane, no matter what they will plan to do that because you have seen them. You can either tell the police everything and do the right thing or hide fearing that they will find you someday” he got angry. She jerked off his hands and ran back in bedroom slamming the door loudly.

     

    When they returned back from police station, Jane went in bedroom silently. She didn’t talk to him on their way back too.

    After some hours, she walked out of the bedroom while he was sitting on the couch thinking about everything. She sat next to him with her hands clasped together. He took his I-pod and played a song. He got up and held out his hand saying, “Come”

    She was looking at him in surprise, “What are you doing?”

    He smiled, “Dance with me and for a minute, pretend that the world around doesn’t exist. Just for minute”

    She sighed, “I don’t think it is a good idea”

    He took her hand and made her stand. Slipping his hand around her waist, entwining his fingers with hers in his other hand, he started dancing with her. She smiled, “You don’t have to do this.”

    He pulled her closer. She shook her head, “I am not your responsibility. I know you are angry with me for keeping all this a secret from you. You can break up”

    He smiled, “Well, I was mad at you but…you know I can’t be mad at you for long”

    She grinned, “And why is that?”

    He kissed her cheek saying, “Because I love you”

    She lowered her eyes trying to hide her tears, “Even after knowing what I do?”

    He nodded, “Of course. Also, I think I’ll have a private dance for free”

    She laughed, “But I left the job yesterday. I don’t strip anymore”

    “Too bad for me” he replied. Her phone rang. She picked up saying, “Hello…”

    She started shivering again. When she ended the call, she sat on couch with her face in her hands. He asked, “Was it those people threatening you?”

    She shook her head, “No, it was from the police. They caught them and they want them to come by to confirm”

    He smiled, “That is good, right?”

    She shook her head, “No, that means I have to face them again”

    He knelt in front of her, “Hey, I am with you. Just be brave”

    She nodded squeezing his hand, “I’ll wear something appropriate”

    He laughed, “Why?”

    She stood up, “Aren’t you going to take me out?”

    “Fine” he nodded.

     

    “This is not the guy” she screamed at the top of her voice. Finn supported her by holding her by shoulders. She shook her head, “No”

    Officer replied, “This is the guy. He confessed everything”

    Finn understood that there was something fishy going on. He took her out of the station before she made a scene. He made her sit in the car. She said, “Finn, I am not lying. He is not that guy. I don’t know why everyone is making this up”

    Finn assured her, “I’ll get the information about this. Don’t get scared”

    She yelled, “How can you say that? I saw a murder Finn. And the killer is on loose. I don’t think I shouldn’t be feeling calm”

    He said, “Look, I am going to go in. I’ll be back in few minutes. Will you be fine?”

    She nodded closing the door. He went to get information on the case.

    When he returned, he noticed that she was not in the car. She tried to call her but her phone was off.

     

    Finn searched for four months but she was nowhere to be found. One day, he got a call from the police station informing him that they found someone matching her description. He rushed down there and found her sitting on the bench outside. As he sat next to her hugging her tightly, she looked at him with a blank expression. He asked, “Why are you looking at me like you don’t know me?”

    She shook her head, “Should I know you?”

    He was confused. A lady officer walked up to him saying, “She doesn’t know anything. We found her in the Grace Hospital. When they found her, she was in high drug dose. She doesn’t remember anything or anyone. We have been searching her home for a month. So, can you tell what your relation with her is?”

    He replied, “Umm, I am her boy…no, I am her fiancé. We were supposed to get married soon but then she went missing”

    “Oh, you should take care of her now. Did something happen? Do you have any idea who could have done this to her? Was she doing drugs?”

    He shook his head, “No, she didn’t do drugs. Actually, she…”

    He took her in the other corner while Jane sat there lost in thoughts. He explained her everything, “Now, I don’t want this case to ruin her life anymore. I want to start new life with her. Please get her out of this. I want them to get caught but I don’t want her to go through that trauma again. She had had enough of everything.”

    Officer nodded, “She had suffered a lot. You can take her. We will try to catch whoever did this to her”

    Finn gave a smile and walked back to Jane saying, “Hey baby, want to go home? Our home?”

    Her face was blank. She asked, “Who are you?”

    He replied, “We were going to get married. I am Finn. You are Jane. We love each other madly”

    She narrowed her eyes, “And why do you love me?”

    He replied, “Because you are a beautiful and amazing person. You are my present and I want you to be my future”

    She asked with innocence, “Did you use this line while proposing me?”

    He laughed, “Yes, so I am asking you again. Will you marry me?”

    She replied, “But they are saying I have lost my memory. You have to remind me everything”

    He took her hand, “I will be happy to do that”

    She nodded with a smile, “Okay, I’ll marry you”

    He kissed her and hugged her.

     

    Finn and Jane got married. There was no happily ever after because he had to remind her everything but he enjoyed it. He saw her innocence when she tried to remember but couldn’t. Her culprits were caught after two years but she didn’t know anything about the incident because Finn thought it was best not to remind her the trauma she went through.

    Everything in our life happens for a reason. Sometimes, a relationship goes through a rough patch to make break the relationship or make it stronger. It is up to the individuals if they want to leave or be there with each other through thick and thin.

     

     

  • Somebody to You

    Somebody to You

    Do you know what the person you like thinks about you?

     

    Samantha

    Dear diary,

    Today I saw him passing by way. I didn’t know what to do. I have been greeting him with smile but it felt awkward now. So, I looked the other way. Besides, he is the star footballer of the team. He’ll never notice the shy nerd like me.

    I still remember the first day I saw him. It was chilly day. I and my friends were sitting in the library when he entered with his friends. He looked serious but had a small grin on his face when he saw his friends goofing around. They sat on the table across us. I turned my attention back to my book but couldn’t help glancing at him every minute.

    I don’t know how to get him off my mind. I have been having hard time in Chemistry because he sits beside me. Every time I look at him, I find him doodling in his notebook. I must tell he is not good at it. Well, I get shivers whenever he asks me a doubt. I try to keep straight but in being so, I become rude to him, I think.

    Also, I think he is going out Veronica, the popular girl. She is beautiful. I know I can never be like her.

     

    Lenny

    Dear diary,

    Today, I passed by the corridor and saw the pretty smart girl I usually sit with Chemistry class. I tried to smile at her but she looked away. Besides, I am just a guy who could score goals while she’s this pretty honors student. She’ll never like a guy like me.

    I remember the day I first day I saw her. It was miserably cold outside so we thought we would sit in library for few minutes. It was warm inside but I didn’t know why everyone was so happy today. I hated winters and I had this huge fight that morning with dad. I pretended to be happy but when I saw her, it was magical. She was looking cute in those round specs with her bangs covering her forehead. I settled in the table across her. She was engrossed in her reading but whenever she looked up, I pretended to read the magazine.

    I don’t know how to get her off my mind. When I sit beside her in Chemistry, I try to talk to her by pretending to get stupid doubts. But I think I disturb her a lot because she is becoming rude to me.

    Last week, I was stuck on double date with Josh, his girlfriend, Briana and Veronica. Josh and Briana went in another booth while I and Veronica sat there in awkward silence.

    Veronica is nice but…I don’t know why I wrote but. There shouldn’t be any but.

     

    Samantha

    Dear diary,

    I was sitting on the benches when I saw him practicing. I don’t know much about football but he was definitely good at it. The benches have become a perfect spot for me now. I sit here every day, watch him play. He jogged towards me. My heart was racing faster than ever. But he went to his bag and drank water from his bottle. He said hi to me before returning to the team. I wanted to answer back to him but it was like my lips were stick with glue. Wish I had the courage to talk to him…

    Tell him that I really like.

     

    Lenny

    Dear diary,

    I saw her today sitting on the benches again. Josh joked about her but I controlled my urge to punch him. I excused myself to go to drink some water after scoring some goals. You can say that I was trying to impress her but I don’t think she looked up from her book to see me score.

    When I jogged to the benches, my plan was to talk to her but suddenly, I went to my bag and started drinking water. I looked up at her and said hi. Then, words didn’t come out of my mouth. It was like I had forgotten how to speak. So, I ran back to team.

    I don’t know if I would be ever be able to tell her that I really like her…

     

    Samantha

    Dear diary,

    Today I think I should write to you what I actually want to say to him. So here it goes…

    Lenny, I know we haven’t really talked much but I just want to say I really like you. I love Chemistry classes because that is the only time I am near you. I like watching you and seeing you smile. Honestly, when you smile, I feel happy too. Okay, that was too cheesy.

    I have your photograph but I need more than that. I need to know you, need to be around you. Before I saw you, I was okay but since the day I saw you, I keep thinking about you. Nothing matters to me more than the fact that I want to be with you.

    I guess it is not that difficult to write. But why is it so hard to say? Every time I am near him. I start to shiver.

     

    Lenny

    Dear diary,

    Samantha Abrams, the girl who had been keeping me awake at nights. I don’t know how to say that to her that I really like her. I have started to love Chemistry classes because they gave me a reason just to be around her. I love watching her read in library. Yes, I spy on her in library.

    I have her photograph from yearbook but I need a lot more than just that. I want to tell her that I have been thinking about her since the day I saw her. Nothing is more important for me that to be with her. I love when she is sitting on the benches reading and I watch her.

    I guess she will never notice me and I would never have the courage to say that to her. I think I am falling for her.

     

    Samantha

    Dear diary,

    I wish to go out with him but he would never ask me…

     

    Lenny

    Dear diary,

    I wish to ask her out but she would never say yes…

     

    Samantha

    Dear diary,

    I saw him today. He looked sad. I have heard that he had been having some issues with his father. Actually, my father and his father are buddies. He comes to our place for watching games too.

    I don’t what issues they are having but it saddens me to see him upset. I wish I could ask him what was wrong or at least pretend to be his friend. But we are not friends. We hardly talk in Chemistry too.

    Do you know…he got a scholarship? I am happy for him. I hope it cheers him.

     

    Lenny

    Dear diary,

    Today, I received the scholarship letter. I didn’t wanted that which got me into a huge fight with dad.

    Also, I want to talk to her but she seems busy with her work so I don’t disturb her. I thought we could at least be friends but deep down I know I don’t want to be just friends with her.

    She seems worried about something. I hope she is okay.

     

    Samantha

    Dear diary,

    I will soon be going to city. It breaks my heart to leave my life here. And you know who I am going to miss the most…

    The person I didn’t talk to straight. I can’t believe it I am saying this but I think…I don’t just like him.

    I love him…

    No, this can’t be. I am too young.

     

    Lenny

    Dear diary,

    I am getting out of this house. Finally! But what hurts the most is that I would be away from her now. I don’t know where she is going.

    Sometimes, I imagine what would have happened if I had courage to ask her out? I think I will miss her the most. She had been the light in my life when I needed the most. Her smile would make my day. Watching her…I could do that all day. I think…

    I love her.

     

    Lenny and Samantha lived in two separate worlds and both wanted to come out of it to be with each other. They knew their paths will be separated as the studies will get over and they did.

    Gradually, they forgot about each other and carried on with their lives until one day…

     

    Samantha has come back to home after years. She was walking around the neighborhood when she came across his house. All the memories buried deep down came flashing back. She stepped on the porch with her heartbeat getting faster by minute. She didn’t knew he still had this effect on her, or even his thoughts made her feel butterflies in her stomach. She rang the doorbell. It looked an abandoned house. She walked around the house reliving the feelings she had when she used to cross his house.

    Sitting on the front steps for minutes, she was going to head back home when she noticed a shiny lock under one of the wooden plank. She checked if no one was looking before getting a small book out. It was a black gray notebook with half of the pages eaten away by insects. Brushing of the dust, she opened the lock using her pin. Then, she started reading it.

    It was like reliving every moment of her past life here but from his perception. She didn’t know how to react. He had the same feelings as hers for years and both of them never really confessed it. Going back in time, made her realize how important time was.

    She came back to New York to her new life but brought his journal with her.

     

    Another day, Samantha was walking down the streets when she saw him. He entered a coffee house. She followed him in and saw him waiting for someone. She walked over asking, “I hope I am not interrupting”

    He looked up and their eyes met. He smiled seeing how perfect she looked. Nothing had changed about her. He shook his head saying, “No, I was just waiting for a friend. You can sit if you want”

    She slid in the seat across his. She said, “Umm, actually, I wanted to say sorry”

    He was confused, “For what?”

    She took out the notebook from her bag saying, “For reading this. I know I was not supposed to read it”

    He took the journal and flipped through pages. Realization struck him. She knows now. He closed the notebook and started tapping the edge. She asked, “May I ask something?”

    He nodded not sure what she would ask. She leaned in, resting her elbows on table, “Why didn’t you say anything?”

    He replied, “I guess because I feared that you would say no”

    She laughed and took out another notebook from her bag. It was a purple covered small journal. She said giving it to him, “Read it, then we’ll be even”

    He took it asking, “What would have been your answer?”

    She smiled, “It is in this only”

    Saying this, she left leaving her card on the table. He slid the card in his pocket and started reading the book.

     

    “So, let me get this straight…you never really liked Chemistry?” she asked. He laughed, “Of course I hated it until it became my chance to sit with you”

    She blushed. He took her hand saying, “You sat on benches for me?”

    She nodded. He said, “All my life I thought I was nobody to you and wished to be somebody to you”

    “How can you be nobody to me? I thought I was some random girl to you”

    He shook his head, “You were never random. I used to think about ways to get you off my mind. Now that you are back, I don’t know if I want to get you out again”

    She laughed, “Me too. I now want to see you every day. I also don’t want to lose you again.”

    She entwined her finger with his.

  • You tied me down

    You tied me down

    You have no control over whom you fall for…

     

    We have Austin. If you want to see him alive, drop 500 million in the post box near the church. Consider this as proof.

    Alex read the letter and darted her gaze up to see another guy standing in the black hoodie for approval. He squinted his eyes saying, “Pour some red ink on the sweater to scare them a little”

    She nodded. Another man with a scar on his right cheek brought the sweater and poured some red ink on a white sweater with red reindeers on it. Alex stuffed everything in an envelope and gave it to him. The man with scar went away with it. She turned to the man in hoodie, “One, what to do about him? He is constantly struggling to get out of the ropes”

    He yelled, “Do I have to tell you everything? Deal with it”

    He stormed out of the room. She got up curling her finger around the trigger of revolver. She walked inside adjacent room. Tilting her head a little with a smile, she says, “You might be feeling cold without your sweater. Aren’t you too old for these kinds of childish ones?”

    Austin was blindfolded but he smirked, “Your voice tells me you must be beautiful. And you are caring about me…this is so sweet”

    She gritted her teeth. He chuckled, “How about you take off this and I see your beautiful face?”

    She shot near his foot. She asked, “You think this is joke?”

    He was quiet. She took off his blindfold and went out.

    His vision was blur but saw her walking away. He looked at his foot and saw fired bullet there. Initially, he was thinking it might be one of the pranks that his friends played but seeing the bullet made him think otherwise. Soon his thoughts drifted to her voice. It was sweet but had a hint of arrogance in it.

     

    “Why don’t you come out of shadows and let me see you?” Austin demanded. Alex had her hood on. She said, “How about you just shut up?”

    He said, “Look these ropes are really hurting me. Just loosen them a little, please”

    She stepped forward tied the ropes tighter. He laughed through pain, “Fine love, you can torture me all you want”

    “How can you enjoy being kidnapped?” she asked. He said, “Oh please, you did me a favour by getting me out of there. I was so bored with my life.”

    One entered hurriedly saying, “We have to move. Get him”

    Alex took out her gun from back of her jeans and made Austin stand by untying the ropes in his legs. One grabbed his arm and dragged him out. She had already blindfolded him.

    While walking down the stairs, he tried to get out by pushing One back but Alex shot him in his leg. He fell on floor screaming in pain. Alex pointed the gun at him saying, “You will not leave until and unless we get our money”

    He yelled, “I’ll give you as much money as you want, just let me go”

    One made him stand and grasped his arm tightly saying, “You’re dad will pay for you”

    They climbed in a truck with Austin limping. Alex pulled him in the truck. The man with scar slid in the driving seat and One sat beside him. Alex pulled out his blindfold and passed an apple to him. His pants were soaked in blood. She grinned, “The bullet just made a scratch, nothing else”

    He leaped forward saying, “You will pay for this. My dad will not leave you guys”

    He saw an innocent face under the hoodie. Her small brown curls escaping from the side. She had make-up on like she wanted to look gothic but her big eyes made her look more victim than a criminal. She sneered, “Well, what worse he could possibly do? Send me to jail, have my dad’s life ruined…been there, done that”

    He sat back shocked, “He did that?”

    “He is not actually a saint for your kind information” she replied taking out a handkerchief from her pocket. She folded his pants up to see his wound. He screamed when she touched it. She commented, “Stop being a kid. It is not that big”

    Truck drove over a speed breaker which made her fall to her side. He smiled. She rolled her eyes with a small smile saying, “It happens”

    Wrapping the handkerchief on his wound, she rest back to her position. He said, “I don’t get it. You shot me first and now you are nursing me”

    She kicked his leg which gave a shooting pain. She shook her head, “I am not nursing you or anything. I just don’t want to ruin the truck with blood. It is hard to get off the stains”

    He laughed, “Yeah, right”

    She kicked him again, “Don’t forget that it is not a vacation. You are kidnapped”

    He nodded, “Yeah, I know that but let me remind you, you are not a scary kidnapper”

    “Stop flirting” she warned him and turned her attention to other end of the truck.

     

    They were in truck for a long time. She had fallen asleep even though the road was bumpy. She must be used to of this. Austin was observing her. She was not what he thought she will. His dad turned this innocent girl into a criminal. He dragged himself forward near her. A strand of hair escaping her hoodie fell on her face. He moved it behind her. She moved a little but fell back to sleep. He sighed. Yes, she was beautiful in her own way even with her heavy eye make-up.

    The truck stopped. She woke up and took out her gun pointing at him, “Step down”

    He replied, “Easy with the gun.”

    She faked a smile as they climbed down. One came up to them saying, “You showed him your face?”

    All of them had their hoodies on. She shook her head, “It was a mistake, One.”

    He grabbed back of her hair which made her hurt. Austin was watching all this. His hand formed a fist, still in ropes. One warned her, “If this plan goes wrong because of your small mistakes, I will kill you”

    She had tears in her but she kept them in and grabbed One’s wrist saying, “Nothing will go wrong now. I promise…at least from my side”

    He let her go. The man with scar said, “If it doesn’t, we still have buyers waiting on you.”

    He came forward continuing, “Those pretty big eyes are liked by many”

    He was going to touch her cheek but she jerked it back saying, “I know”

    She walked to Austin’s side saying, “Let’s get him in”

    They grabbed each of his arm. Still limping with his bullet wound, he looked over his shoulder to see her wiping her tears and pulling her hoodie back up. Kicking the wheels of the truck, she walked in.

     

    “They will sell you?” Austin asked. Alex was sitting with her back pressed to wall. They were waiting for One and his men to return back with money in the small chamber. Their shoulders were inches apart. Sitting in the dark room, she was playing with her revolver. He turned and saw her eyes sparkling in dark, “I can help you, you know”

    She chuckled, “I don’t need anyone’s help. I have survived after my father died, I can survive on my own really well”

    He started, “But…”

    She had her arrogant voice again, “Your father is the reason my dad committed suicide. Your dad killed my dad and you think I’ll take your help”

    He lowered his head saying, “I didn’t know that. I am sorry”

    “It is your dad who should be sorry” she replied “And you keep your sympathy to yourself. I don’t need it.”

    What he didn’t see was that she was crying. She never expected anyone to help her. Everyone she met had taken advantage of her. She turned away to wipe them away saying, “Shut up for a moment”

    He slid next her brushing his arms with hers. When she didn’t pull away, he said, “When I get out, I’ll make sure you don’t stay in this world anymore”

    She sighed. He rested his head on her shoulder, “When he said about selling you, I wanted to grab your gun and kill him. I don’t know why but I don’t want to leave this place anymore”

    She said, “I hope this is not any other type of distraction for me”

    He laughed, “Well, I can’t run with this love wound that you gave me”

    She laughed, “Love, I don’t think I even like you”

    He took her hand in his saying, “But I surely know that I like you”

    She squeezed his hand. When they heard footsteps, she pulled back her hand and stood up. One said, “They played us again”

    He pointed his gun at Austin saying, “Now, I just want to kill him. It had been days and still they don’t care about their son”

    She interrupted, “Let’s just send another one with his real blood on it”

    Taking off the handkerchief, she gave it to one of them, “Say that he was shot and if we don’t get money, we’ll kill him now”

    They walked away saying, “Keep an eye on him”

    Austin held her hand again saying, “I think I’ll keep an eye on you”

    She laughed, “You can flirt anytime and anywhere”

    He nodded, “That is my speciality”

     

    Alex made Austin stand. He liked when she used touch him. She whispered, “You are going home. They got their money”

    He smiled at her. He kissed her saying, “I’ll surely get you out”

    She shrugged, “Even if you don’t, I’ll not mind”

    He took her hand and kissed the back of her hand, “I will”

    They heard gunshots. She grabbed her gun and soon, they were surrounded by the police. They screamed, “Put down your weapon”

    She obeyed them keeping the gun on ground and put her hands behind her back. Austin made his way over to police saying, “She is not one of them. She was just trying to help me. Let her go”

    He saw his parents come in from the door. He ran to hug them. When he turned, he saw One holding Alex as a shield. He shouted, “No, leave her alone”

    His parents dragged him out of the room. He heard gunshots and getting out of their hold, he ran inside. One of the guards said in walkie, “All down”

    He saw her lying in the middle of the room with One’s body who had died in one bullet in his head. He ran by her side, hugging her, “Hey, get up. You didn’t deserve this. I am sorry”

    She smiled, “Austin, it was nice to know someone like you. By the way, my name is Alex”

    He tried to laugh through tears, “I forgot we never really got to introduce ourselves”

    Looking over his shoulder, he called out, “Somebody please call the ambulance. She is bleeding”

    She coughed out blood. He held her more tightly, “You’ll be fine”

    She smiled placing her hand on his cheek, “Hey, you are free. Just make every day worth it. I didn’t get out and I think I deserved it.”

    She kissed him saying, “Bye for this life”

    Her body went still. He hugged her tightly knowing that this will be his last moments with her.

     

    Love can happen to anyone and with anyone. They didn’t know it was love or symptoms of Stockholm syndrome and they will never know now. Austin belonged to a rich family but he still had something missing in his life…A purpose. She made him realise that it is privilege to have a life because we don’t know, when this journey will end. Austin mend his ways and went from a careless boy to a responsible one helping everyone in his best possible way because he promised her that he will get her out. He helped many escape and kept his promise.

  • Love Doesn’t Care

    Love Doesn’t Care

    Two imperfect individuals make a perfect relationship.

     

    Toby served the coffee to the old woman with a smile. She paid him and went away. Even though people never acknowledged his smile, he still greeted every new customer with smile. He loved coming to work just to see her sitting in corner drinking coffee, engrossed in book. She had big round glasses on her chubby face. Her fizzy red hair were tied in a bun. She had a regular look. His colleagues called her “Corner Fatty”. He didn’t fight with them but never joined in too.

    She walked up to him and took out money to pay. Giving the bill to her, he said, “Thank you ma’am”

    She replied back with smile and took the change, “Thank you”

    Her smile made butterflies flutter in his stomach. He had not felt like this for anyone. She walked away.

     

    Katie was rushing down the street. She was late for class. She thought about skipping the run at Coffee House but coffee made her going. Standing at the door of the Coffee House, she stood there in confusion. She has test today. Glancing at her watch, she sighed and went in. Ordering the coffee for going, she called her friend that she will be late.

    She paid for coffee and ran out. As she was hurriedly walking to the gate of her college, she observed something strange. Instead of her name, it was written.

    ‘Rosy Red’

    She squinted her brows but throwing away the cup in garbage, she ignored it. She thought it might be a joke by one of the employees of the Coffee House.

     

    He loved her red hair. He asked Cal, one of his colleagues to write ‘Rosy Red’ just to remind her that she has lovely hair. He was not well built like his other friends but had a decent heart. They used to tease him for his lanky body but he was fine with that because deep in his heart, he knew how to love people irrespective of their outer appearances.

     

    Another day, Katie rushed to the Coffee House to get her coffee. As she was going to exit, she glanced at her cup. It was written…

    ‘You’re beautiful’

    She glanced back and her eyes met with the black eyes of the boy standing behind the counter. This was the first time she noticed that he was worth a look. She walked back to him and asked, “Did you write this?”

    He nodded with a smile. She narrowed her eyes, “Are you mocking me?”

    He stepped back saying, “No definitely no”

    She placed the cup on counter asking, “So what kind of sick joke it is?”

    He shrugged, “It is my way of asking you out?”

    She thought for a moment, “You want to go out with me? This is definitely a joke”

    “No, it is not a joke. I like you and I want to go out with you” he replied nervously looking at the cup on the counter. She rolled her eyes, “Fine, tomorrow here at 4 in evening”

    He nodded. She left drinking her coffee. He held the counter for support. She used to make him nervous. There was a magic about her.

     

    Katie was sitting in her room with her best friend Gina. She said, “And then he asked me out. Can you believe that?”

    Gina nodded, “Yes, I can believe that and I think it is cute”

    Katie clutched the pillow hard saying, “Maybe it is some sort of prank. Oh, I get it. He’ll not come and I’ll be a joke”

    Gina laughed, “Why are you not believing that someone can like you too?”

    She shook her head, “No, it can’t happen. You know how many guys rejected me?”

    Gina shrugged. Katie continued, “20. Yeah, I am only 19. Guys don’t like girls like me”

    She pointed toward her body, “This is not what they want. They want girls like you, slim, sexy and beautiful. They don’t like girls who are fat. That is the reason models have a perfect figure and guys love watching fashion shows”

    Gina sighed, “Genuine guys don’t care the shape or size of girl. They fall for personality. Even though you have a little weight, you are still very beautiful. Maybe he saw amazing you are, that is why he asked you out”

    She held Katie by shoulders, “Now go and make me proud”

    Katie stood up and put on her jacket. Gina said, “And don’t be in this stupid belief that you are not sexy. From my point of view, you are sexy and beautiful”

     

    She slid in her regular seat. He came wearing a striped shirt. He looked good without his apron on and with his hair combed in a perfect manner. Slipping in seat next to her, he said, “Hi”

    She smiled, “Hi”

    “You look good today”

    “You too without that logo of the shop”

    He laughed. She asked, “What made you ask me out?”

    He shrugged, “Since the first day you entered the shop, you caught my eyes. Unlike other girls, you were there sitting in corner, minding your own business and not caring what people say about you. I liked that”

    She blushed, “You like me. That is new. No one ever said except for my family and my best friend”

    He wanted to reach for hand but controlled himself, “Why is that? What is not there to like about you? You are beautiful. Judging by the choices of books, you are intelligent. The way you thanked me every day, say that you are kind and notice small gestures of people. You certainly are the girl of dreams…at least for me”

    She laughed, “Wow that was cheesy. But you were really good in observing me”

    He laughed nervously, “Some might find it creepy”

    She shook her head, “No, I find it sweet”

    He blushed, “Thanks”

    She took the menu from the table. He asked, “Do you really have to look at menu. You come here every day”

    She smirked, “I know but it is fun to pretend”

    After some days, they went out to a park. When they sat on the bench, a ball came to them. A young boy around twelve said, “Hey Fatso, pass the ball”

    Toby stood up saying, “Hey watch out kid that is my girlfriend you are talking about”

    She was never bothered what people said about her but made fun of in front of him, broke her heart. She was humiliated. While Toby was talking to the kid, she ran away.

    The kid said laughing hard, “Be careful, she can crush you with her weight”

    Toby had her cheeks filled with anger. He was going to beat that kid but when he saw Katie running away, he thought about following her. He kicked the ball to the kid and ran after her.

     

    She was sitting outside her dorm room door. When he reached there, he saw her crying with her head kept on knees. He sat next to her asking, “What’s wrong?”

    She wiped her tears with her sleeves and looked up saying, “Gina is out and I forgot my keys in”

    “Is that reason you were crying?” he asked. She shook her head. He raised his eyebrows, “Then what is wrong?”

    She placed her head on his shoulder saying, “People make fun of me but that I can stand. But if you stay with me, they’ll make fun of you too”

    He chuckled, “That is the thing. I don’t like it when they making jokes on you. I don’t care about me”

    He took her hand and clasped it tightly, “But if we get bothered about them making jokes on us, then we will never be able to have fun”

    She smiled through tears, “I love that you are not like other people”

    He wrapped his arm around her shoulder and kissed her.

     

    “I think I am going to join a gym” Katie said tying up her hair. Gina was confused, “Why? Did he say something?”

    “No, I just…I just don’t want the people make fun of him too and I feel kind of embarrassed to be made fun of in front of him”

    Gina shook her head, “No, you don’t have to do anything stupid just because people don’t like the way you are”

    Katie took her bag and opened the door saying, “You won’t understand”

    As she was walking down the street, her stomach was paining. She knew she was hungry and that salad that she ate would not last even a minute but still controlling her urge to eat, she entered the Coffee House to say morning to him. He kissed her saying, “Good morning beautiful”

    She smirked but a cupcake behind him caught her attention. He saw her so he asked, “Are you hungry? Do you want anything?”

    She shook her head, “No, it is nothing”

    She knew if she told him that she was dieting, he would give a big lecture to her. So kissing him goodbye, she left.

     

    It had been three days since she started dieting. She had skipped their lunch dates and used to eat salad whenever hungry. One day, they were walking down the street. She was hungry but couldn’t eat anything that her diet plan didn’t allow. While walked pass a pizza shop, she had a soothing smell of food. She knew she had to control herself. Wrapping her arms around his arm, she took support of him while walking.

    He knew something was wrong with her. Her face looked pale, her smile had vanished and she looked tired all the time. Then, when she held his arm, she seemed weak. They sat on a bench. He asked, “What is wrong? There is something odd about you”

    She shook her head lying, “Nothing”

    She hated lying to him. He shrugged, “Okay, then I am going to get us some snacks because I am hungry and you seem weak too”

    “No, I am not hungry. You can eat if you want”

    “What is going on with you? You don’t want to eat with me. Is there something wrong with the way I eat?”

    “No, there is nothing wrong” she replied. She lowered her head, “I…I am dieting”

    “What? Why?” he asked. She replied, “Because I am fat. That is the reason”

    He started laughing, “There is nothing wrong with being a little over-weight. It is not like you are huge or anything. I like you the way you are. Fat or not”

    She had tears streaming down her face. He wiped her tears and kissed her cheeks saying, “I like hugging my teddy bear the way it is. And you are not doing any good by going on dieting”

    Suddenly, she collapsed. Toby rushed her to hospital. Doctors informed him that it was because of her improper food intake that her blood pressure went low. He sat by her side watching her sleep. When she regained her conscious, he started at her with death glare. She looked away saying, “Don’t stare at me like that”

    He folded his arms across his chest saying, “I am mad at you. You scared the hell out of me”

    She said with a faint smile, “Thanks for loving me when I couldn’t love myself”

    He took her hand saying, “I want you with all your flaws. You are not perfect. And that is fine by me because I am not perfect either. If I wanted a girl with perfect shape or size, I would have dated a mannequin”

    She giggled, “I know and I am sorry. From now on, you’ll see the Katie that you used to love. The foodie and nerd”

    He squeezed her hand firmly saying, “I love you”

    She gave a big smile, “And I love you too”

     

    Sometimes, we want to change for the people we love because we want to be worthy of their love. But the ones who are worthy of you will never ask you to change a single thing about you. They will love every flaw, imperfection, mistake that you made.

  • Captured by Society

    Captured by Society

    We all want to be free but there are some people whom our society want to chain…

     

    Vani sat in the chair still having her eyes glued at her. There was something about her that made her stomach feel sick. Maybe it was butterflies. She had to pull away her eyes when she saw her boyfriend walk in. She focused her attention on the food kept in her plate. She used to love the time of lunch when she used get to see her smile and have one glance of her.

    Her best friend, Nikhil slid in chair next to her. He picked one the fries from her plate and asked, “Who are you watching?”

    She shook her head and eating her lunch as fast as she can. He followed her gaze and saw Monica and her boyfriend sitting across the room, laughing at some joke. Nikhil said, “You should go and talk to her”

    Vani sighed, “There is no such thing. I was just watching where the voice was coming from”

    “You can’t hide it from me” he nudged her elbow. She pushed the tray in front of him and left.

     

    Her heart was racing fast. Vani wiped her tears with her jacket’s sleeves after coming out of the washroom. She went up to the medical room and informed that she was not feeling well and wanted to go home.

     

    Closing the door behind her, she led out a loud scream. She was down in tears and sat on ground, hugging her knees closer.

    She wanted to feel safe but being in these clothes made her feel dirty. Wiping her tears hurriedly, she went in for shower. She tried to rub off everything that happened. She changed into a big sweatshirt and a pair of comfortable jeans.

    After a while, her mother entered the room with dinner. When she saw her crying, she wrapped her arms around her shoulder saying, “Sweetie, everything will be fine. You had a bad day?”

    She shook her head and hugged her mother tightly. Her mother was worried now. She asked, “What happened? You are getting me worried”

    Vani pulled back saying, “Mom, I can’t tell you. Something really bad happened”

    Pushing her hair-locks back, her mother caressed her cheeks, “I am your mother. You can tell me anything”

    She lowered her head and closing her eyes, she started, “Mom, today… when I was in bathroom… actually, there are some girls that bully me and today… they went way too ahead with that. I don’t know how they got to know that I like girls and since that day, they have started teasing me. Today…”

    She sobbed, “They touched me mom. They… really touched me mom”

    Her mom had just got blank. She dropped her hands and said, “It will be fine. You can take leave for as much days as you want but don’t talk to anyone else about this”

    Vani grabbed her mother’s hand, “But mom, they did a bad thing. Aren’t they supposed to get punished for that?”

    Her mother shook her head, “I don’t know what to say. But first thing in morning, we are going to see a doctor”

    She hugged her mother and started crying again.

     

    A big man sat in the chair in front of them. She was holding her mother’s hand tightly. Her mother started saying, “We came here with a problem. Vani…umm…she…I don’t know how…”

    Vani lowered her head because she didn’t want to see doctor in eyes when her mother narrated the incident. Her mother said squeezing her hand, “She likes girls”

    Vani looked up, shocked. She never thought of this as a problem. Her mother continued, “What is the remedy for that?”

    She pulled her hand back asking, “What are you saying? That is not a problem, mom,”

    Her mother put her hand on her shoulder saying, “Sweetie, I am mother. I know it will be fine. Doctor will give you medicine and then you would be good to go”

    Doctor laughed saying, “Ma’am, this is not disease. It is not a problem”

    Her mother snapped, “But she doesn’t like boys. There must be something wrong”

    Doctor shook her head, “There is nothing wrong with her. It is just her personality.”

    Her mother stood up saying, “If you don’t want to help her, then it is fine. I am going to take her to another doctor”

    Vani shouted, “Enough mom, I can’t believe it. It is who I am. It is not something that will go away if I take medicine”

    She stormed out of the doctor’s office.

     

    Nikhil was sitting by the stairs when Vani stepped down and sat next to him. She said, “I can’t believe it. She made appointment with another doctor for today”

    Nikhil punched her arm playfully, “You are the rock. You will get through this. It is just one more year, then you will be adult to make your own decisions”

    She nodded, “I know”

    He said picking his bag, “I think someone needs to talk to you”

    She looked up and saw Monica standing elegantly in front of them. She sat in place of Nikhil saying, “Hey”

    “Hey” Vani replied fiddling with her scarf. Monica noticed that she was nervous. She smiled, “I wanted to talk to you. Actually, do you want to hang out sometime?”

    “But you have a boyfriend. If you mean as friends, I don’t know”

    Monica took her hand and entwined her finger with hers saying, “I didn’t mean as friends. Plus, my “fake” boyfriend says there is a very nice place nearby”

    Vani looked at her confused, “What do you mean fake?”

    She shrugged, “Apparently, people have hard time accepting me for who I am. So, for my parents, I am dating him but…if you say yes, it could be us who would be really dating”

    Vani smiled as Monica kissed the back of her hand.

     

    After some years, Vani finally moved out of her parent’s house and accepted the lifestyle she always wanted to live. She spent the time with the people who loved her the way she is.

    Sometimes, people don’t accept the way people are and how their personalities are but what we don’t know is, we can’t people and not judge the way they want to be in this world.

     

  • Closure

    Closure

    We meet people for a reason. They either destroy us or build us…

     

    She stumbled but he caught her. He was caught in moment when he saw her smile. He said having a small smile, “You are really drunk”

    She laughed, “No, I don’t know why people are thinking that but who are you”

    He had his arms wrapped around her waist to make her stand straight, “I am Austin”

    “Austin…I don’t know anyone by that name. Well, I am Zee. Why are you so blurry?” She asked cupping his face with her hands. She looked around, “Why is the room spinning so much?”

    He laughed but his face turned serious when he glanced at the people who were checking her out. He knew he can’t leave her like this but he couldn’t find anyone who was searching for her.

     

    She was singing in top of her voice with her arms around his neck. He was trying to make her walk but laughed when she slipped on his floor and started laughing. He picked her up in his arms and made her lay in his bed. He tucked the blanket around her and said, “You are one crazy girl that I met at bar”

    She dozed off to sleep while babbling. He took out some spare blankets out of the closet and went to sleep on the couch nearby but something about couldn’t make her sleep. She had too much make up on her face but her skin still looked soft and glowing. He watching her sleep comfortable in his bed. He didn’t know when he fell asleep.

     

    His eyes flew open when he heard something broke. Zee had her heels hugged tightly and a bottle in her hands. She shouts, “Who the hell are you?”

    He get on his feet. She warned him, “Don’t you dare come near me. I have this deodorant in my hand. If you come any closer, I’ll spray it in your eyes…and I know some basic karate tricks too”

    He threw his hands in air saying, “Hey, I am no harm. (Pointing at deodorant) I am pretty sure it is empty”

    She shook the bottle and after finding it empty, she threw the bottle at him. He ducked shouting, “Are you crazy?”

    He stepped closer but she stepped two steps back, falling on the bed. She asked, “What are you planning to do?”

    He laughed, “Now, it is confirmed, you are mad person. I brought you in when you was super drunk”

    She scanned the whole room. He assured her, “And we didn’t do anything”

    She narrowed her eyes, “Are you sure?”

    He nodded. A smile crept on his face when he saw her smiling. She started laughing, “I am sorry. I shouldn’t have hit you with the deodorant. I got scared because I don’t know any self-protection tricks or karate”

    He shrugged, “It is fine”

    “So, you are saying that you are used to girls throwing things at you”

    He tilted his head, rubbing his chin, “Well, they usually throw themselves at me”

    She rolled her eyes, “Yeah, right”

    He rubbed his palms on his sweat-pants. He didn’t know why he was sweating. Was he nervous around her? No, he was never nervous around any girl. He asked, “You want something to eat? I’ll make you breakfast”

    She nodded. He walked to closet and gave her his t-shirt saying, “You can freshen up”

    She smelled the t-shirt, “Did you wash it?”

    Giving him a big smile, she walked to the bathroom while he went in the kitchen to search for something to eat.

    After a while, she walked over to kitchen and hopped on the counter saying, “What are you making?”

    He replied, “I was thinking of making bacon and some eggs”

    She bit her lip saying, “I must tell you that I am vegan”

    He turned to her saying, “I surely have some fruits in here”

    “Very funny” she said pushing him back from the counter. She started searching in cabinets. She asked taking out the cereals box, “What kind of grown-up man has ‘Froot Loops’?”

    He replied, “A man who knows taste”

    She rolled her eyes. Taking out another box with her eyes wide open and excitement in her voice, she said, “And Gummy Bears”

    She started eating them. He asked, “You are not going to eat Froot Loops?”

    She nodded with her mouth full, “Oh, I am going to eat it”

    He stepped in and started making breakfast for himself saying, “Did you forget to take meds?”

    She raised her eyebrows, “What meds?”

    He joked, “You are seriously a crazy one. I assumed you would surely be on meds”

    She hit his shoulder saying, “I get that you don’t have a girlfriend”

    He glared at her. She shrugged and went to sit by the table. He asked leaning the counter, “You want to be one?”

    “Is that the best you got?” she asked catching another Gummy Bear in her mouth. He shook his head laughing, “You are really something. You want to go out?”

    She laughed, “Fine, if you insist”

    He put the bowl of cereal in front of her and had bacon for himself. They finished their breakfast. They were walking down the street talking.

    He took the bite of his burger asking, “That would mean that you get to work with hot models”

    She shook her head with smile, “Nah, you heard me wrong. I said I am a wildlife photographer. I take photographs of animals”

    “What is the fun in that?” he asked. She jumped forward down the pavement, “Well, I guess you have not seen how beautiful animals are. They are simply adorable. Plus, they don’t take time to get ready”

    He said taking the last bite, “As you will be wondering…”

    She interrupted, “I was not wondering anything”

    He laughed, “You know you can sometimes be rude”

    She shrugged, “I know that. So, what do you do?”

    “I was telling you that only. I am DJ” he told her. She punched his arm saying, “That is a fancy job to pick up girls”

    He laughed again, “Oh, come on I didn’t get this job for that only”

    She raised her eyebrows, “Only? So, I am right. It was one of the reasons”

    He nodded looking at her from corner of his eyes. She started laughing hard.

     

    Zee was sitting with her legs stretched in Austin’s lap. She was going through her photographs from previous day. He was listening to his music in his laptop. She called him, “Austin”

    He didn’t pay any attention. She slid forward in his lap shoving the laptop to side and pulling out his headphones. He asked, “What happened?”

    She wrapped her arms around his neck pulling him closer, “I have a question”

    “I know you will not rest until you have asked. So go on” he rolled his eyes. She nodded with a big smile, “Now, that is advantage of dating an intelligent guy. So, if we were forced to wear a warning label, what would your label say?”

    He chuckled, “What? Umm, I think…selfish.”

    She rushed her fingers in his hair saying, “No, it would be clingy”

    He started laughing pulling her closer knotting his fingers at her back, “I have one for you too. It would be unpredictable”

    She gave a laugh saying, “Exactly”

     

    “We are celebrating our one year together” announced Austin. He hugged Zee and turned around to the group of friends which had gathered in his club. She took a sip of her as he said, “I am going to be back in a bit. You will be okay?”

    She asked, “You are going out to smoke, right?”

    He rubbed the back of his neck and gazed from floor to her. She shook her head, “Fine, I can’t control you”

    He kissed her cheek and rushed outside the club with his friends. Zee went to the bar to get drinks for herself. A guy came to her saying, “Hi”

    She smiled, “Hi, Jean. Austin just went outside with the rest of the gang”

    Jean was one of the best friends Austin. He sat next to her saying, “Well, I think I should spend some time with you”

    She took a shot of vodka saying, “If you want to spend time, then you have to do shots with me”

    Passing the shot to him, she drank another one. He took shot. Soon, they ended up having ten shots. He pulled himself close to her and put his hand on her bare thighs. She jerked his hand off asking, “What are you doing, Jean?”

    He held her hand, “You are really beautiful, Zee. I just want to know what Austin see in you”

    He tried to hug her but she pushed him back and grabbing her bag, starting walking to the exit gate. Jean forcefully took her to room near the gate. She hit him with her bag and ran out to find Austin by his car. He was searching something in there. She hugged him tightly and started crying. He asked, “Zee, what happened? Is everything okay?”

    She sobbed, “Jean…he tried to take advantage of me”

    He wrapped his arms closely saying, “It is okay. It is fine”

    He pulled back asking, “How much did you drink?”

    She was confused, “What do you mean?”

    “I don’t mean anything. Let’s get you home” he started making way to car. She stepped back saying, “You don’t believe me. I can see that”

    He rubbed his forehead saying, “Well, you were drunk the night we met and I think you…maybe misunderstood him helping you”

    She sobbed and wiped her tears with back of her hand, “For your kind information, I am not that drunk that I will not know when someone is trying to make a pass at me. I don’t know how I will make you believe me”

    She spun on her heel saying, “Maybe it is better you and your friends stay away from me”

    He held her hand and turned her towards him asking, “What are you saying?”

    She sniffed, “I am saying stay away from me. If we don’t have trust, then I don’t think we have anything”

    She jerked his hand and started walked away. That night, when she left, he noticed that something inside him died watching her go.

     

    Circling the edge of glass, she stared at the half filled beer. She put her bangs back of her ear and took another sip of the beer. She knew he was observing her. Her eyes located him despite the crowd which the bar had. They didn’t need words to talk. He looked away to the guy sitting next to him. She finished her drink and left the bar without giving last glance at him. He followed her out. Stopping by her car, she said glancing at the reflection in the window, “I still mean it Austin. You should stay away from me”

    He walked close and entwined his fingers in hers saying, “I have. For many years”

    He hugged her from back as she rested her head on his shoulder. She shook her head, “No, I can’t do this now.”

    He smelled her hair which had same fragrance like the years before. Zee pulled herself away saying, “Austin…”

    He hushed her saying, “I know what Jean did to you. He said he was drunk and didn’t know what he was doing.”

    He took her hands saying, “I am sorry for not believing you. I know I did a mistake”

    She shook her head, “You what hurt the most? That after knowing the truth, you didn’t even fight to get me back. It was like I didn’t matter to you.”

    He tried to hold her closer but she resisted continuing, “I came to your apartment drunk and didn’t knew anything what was going on…but that was not supposed to mean that I would repeat that again.”

    She took a deep breath holding her tears in. He lowered his head, ashamed of his mistake. She stepped forward and gave him the pendant he gifted her. He gazed up with tear in his eyes. She said, “I am married now. It doesn’t mean that I would not have feelings for you but I love him more now because he will stand by me, unlike you.”

    She kissed on his cheek saying, “Sometimes, it is better to leave some affairs as they were”

    Slipping in the driver’s seat, she drove away.

  • Messages of Love

    Messages of Love

    Kaira has been a book-lover since childhood and this time a book really changed her life when a cute note kept by her was found by someone…

     

    Dear Stranger,

    Remember to smile
    He found the note kept in the book. A faint smile appeared on his face. He had recently issued the book from the library out of curiosity but when this note fell off on floor, his curiosity for the book increased.

    “What did you keep in the book in library?” Piya asked. Kaira was lying on her bed with her legs stretched on the pillow. She smilingly kept the book in her hand to side, “Just spreading smiles…Whoever will find will at least smile at my stupidity…No matter how bad their day is going on. Plus, it was on my bucket list.”
    Piya jumped next to her asking, “And that was your favourite book?”
    Kaira rolled her eyes, “Piya, how many times I have to tell you? Asking a nerd their favourite book is a big no…it is like asking you which shoe you like more”
    “So you admit you are nerd?” she teased. Kaira replied with wink, “Yeah, cute nerd”

    Mrs. Fisher came in the class with their test results. Kaira was doodling in her notebook. She gazed up and her heart raced faster. It was test results for the test she didn’t study. When her name was called, she expected to get low marks but she got the average. As she was heading back to her seat, she bumped into Tarun. She murmured, “Sorry”
    He sighed and shaking his head went ahead. She loathed him.

    It was not like they had any fight but his style and opinions repelled her. What made her hate him more was that he got highest marks in this test.

    Piya was sitting with her legs crossed on the grass and listening to her music when Kaira threw her bag near her shouting, “That bozo got higher marks than me”
    Piya laughed, “So what? It is not like you studied for it, maybe he studied”
    “Still, I am supposed to get higher marks than him” she looked down at her paper, “At least him”
    Piya hugged her saying, “Aww, someone is having their “competitive” side getting out”
    Kaira replied, “Now on, I am getting better marks than him but…”
    “But…”
    “I can’t understand Psychology”
    Piya laughed, “So, start understanding it”
    “Yes, I’ll go to library for this”
    Piya nodded, “Okay”

    Kaira rushed to library. It was supposed to get closed in an hour. She went straight to psychology section. She grabbed some books but when she picked the last book, someone else also pulled it. She looked up and saw Tarun standing there holding the other end of book. She narrowed her eyes, “Let go. I need this book”
    He shook his head, “You already have so many. I am going to have this”
    “No, you are not. I am having this book”
    He threw his hands in air saying, “How about this? I read it till the library is still open and after that, you can take it”
    She shrugged, “I don’t mind you reading it”
    She gave him the book, “But I am going to sit with you so you don’t run away with it”
    He nodded, “But we are going to sit somewhere else. I don’t want to be seen with you”
    “Like I want to be seen with you” she replied faking a smile. They found a small corner in the far corner of the library. As he started reading putting on his headphones, she plugged in her music player too. When her favourite song started playing, she closed her eyes and put her head against the wall. He was engrossed in the book.
    When the lights went off, he looked up. He noticed that it was half past the closing hour. She shook Kaira who was resting by the wall with her eyes closed. She took off her headphones asking, “What?”
    He answered, “It is closed and I think we are locked”
    “Are you crazy? They can’t lock us. They check before closing” she stood up brushing off the dirt from her skirt. He said, “Maybe they did but we didn’t get it”
    He pointed towards their headphones. She cursed, “Shit!”
    He took out his cell-phone. She shook her head, “Don’t bother. They don’t have network here”
    They walked to the sitting area and slid in the chairs. He asked, “What should we do?”
    “How would I know? I should have known something bad is going to happen when I sat with you”
    “What? Excuse me, you are the clumsy one. Every time some or the other happens with you. I should’ve known it will happen with me too when you reached for that book too”
    Kaira never wished for someone to be dead but in her mind, she was thinking about ways to kill him. She stood up. He asked, “Where are you going?”
    She replied with another fake smile, “Far away from you”
    As she walked to the literature section, she noticed that the book is gone. A smile spread on her face thinking that someone read that note and had smiled. Picking up the ‘Love Letters Of Great Men’, she sat on the floor switching on the flashlight of her phone.

    When she didn’t return, he thought of finding her. He said, “But it is closed library, where else she can go?”

    Unwillingly, he decided to look for her. As he was walking past the literature section, he found her sobbing. She glanced at him and wiped the tears.

    He asked, “Everything okay?”
    She nodded placing the book back in the shelf. She asked, “What do you want?”
    He didn’t want to admit that he was worried about her. He licked his lips saying, “I was thinking, if you have anything to eat?”
    She shook her head, “No, I don’t have anything. And you should know eating in library is prohibited. So, you should go away now before anything else bad happens to you”
    He walked closer saying, “Hey, I don’t mean to say that in that sense”
    She rolled her eyes, “I don’t care what you meant. Just go. I don’t want to be with you”
    “You think you have a choice? I am the only one you could talk in this big library”
    “Then I don’t want to talk. I’ll be happy reading” she took out another book from the shelf. He sat next to her saying, “Fine”
    She was reading while he kept watching her. She knew his eyes were fixed on her. Shutting the book, she asked, “What?”
    He replied with smile. “Nothing. You are so quiet when you are reading and you seem calm”
    She looked up at him. He seemed different. He was different than the regular guy he is on other days. She noticed he had dimples when he smiled. She smiled and this time, it was not fake. She said, “Well, can I tell you a secret?”
    He nodded. She replied, “I am living my dream”
    He was confused. She smilingly said, “I dreamt of being lost in library”
    He laughed, “What kind of person thinks of getting lost in library?”
    “I do. But I never thought I would be locked with you. My dream just became a nightmare”
    He replied, “Well, you were not my first choice for locked-up partner either. I always dreamt if I ever get locked in a room, it would be with Priyanka of Social department”
    She put her face in her hands saying, “I didn’t wanted to know that kind of information”
    Opening the book, she said, “Why don’t you finish the book you came in for…we are here for the night, I think”
    He nodded, “Yeah, I think I should do that because as per our deal, you are going to take the book”
    She gave laugh, “Yeah, I am going to”

    Dear Stranger,
    Have courage and believe that sooner or later something you believe in will happen.
    The note fell from the book Kaira picked next. She smiled thinking there was another person just crazy like her. It was ‘To Kill A Mockingbird’. She started reading it while walking back to the sitting area. She found Tarun dozed off with the books open on the table. She hit him with the book saying, “Hey, if I am not sleeping, I am not letting you sleep either”
    He asked, “What kind of punishment is that?”
    She took out her notebook and scribbled something. He glanced at the book she was reading. He asked, “Hey, you are reading this? May I take a look?”
    She nodded, “Yeah, sure”
    He picked up the book and saw there was nothing in the book. He asked, “Did you find anything in this book?”
    She shook her head releasing what he was talking about. She asked, “Did you keep anything?”
    He said, “Yeah, I wrote something. Actually, I found a note in one of the books. It was kind of cute. And it made me smile even though I was having rough day. So, I thought I should write something like that for a person who is having rough day like me. You sure you didn’t find anything?”
    She shook her head avoiding the eye contact. She shut her notebook and glanced at his notes. Pulling her chair closer, she said, “Umm, I don’t know how to say this…but swallowing my pride, I am going to say this…will you teach me? I don’t understand psychology.”
    He looked up. Her eyes were shining in the moonlight which came through the nearby window. He said, “Fine, it is not like I have anything else to do”

    After a while, Kiara walked around the library with him. She was saying, “You know even though every person has different, we somehow find a similar trait with people we least expect with”
    He nodded, “Yeah, sometimes people have similar personalities too”
    They walking to the Maths section. He said, “I was thinking why do we don’t like each other?”
    She shrugged, “I don’t know. Maybe because I always thought you were better than me and because of the competitive side, I didn’t like you that much”
    He turned to her surprised, “What? I am not better than you. Come on, you are so much better than me. You have survived so much and still you are standing here”
    She walked ahead, “Dad walking out on you is not a big thing. I mean, it was big thing for me but I knew sooner or later, he will leave”
    “How did you know?” he asked. She replied, “As a kid who has seen fights all the time in her house, I knew sooner or later, they will break. I was there for my mom because she needed me and people think it was big for me too but it is really not a big deal for me”
    He didn’t know how to respond. She asked half-turned, “Why you didn’t like me?”
    He replied, “It is stupid reason”
    She laughed, “Oh, come on, I told you my reason. You have to tell me yours”
    He scratched the back of his neck, “Umm, cause I had a crush on you”
    She started laughing, “I want the real reason not a joke”
    He walked closer, “It is the real reason. I had a crush on you so I started hating to make those feelings go away but they only grew stronger. I used to criticise you to make myself hate you but couldn’t do it”
    She was stunned. She swallowed and said, “Wow, that…is… wow”
    Turning around, she walked to the literature section again. He asked, “Okay, so I have a question for you. Why were you crying earlier?”
    She took out the book and gave it to him saying, “I just wished someone could love me like this but I know my untrusting behaviour will never let that happen”
    He said, “Well, you just have to believe that you will get that. Sooner or later, it will happen”
    She smiled, “And till then, remember to smile”
    Something struck him. He asked, “Did you write that note?”
    She turned away, “What note?”
    He rushed back to the sitting area and took out her notebook. It was the same handwriting. She had followed him. He asked, “Why didn’t you tell me?”
    She replied, “I thought you will think of me as a crazy person who write crazy notes to people through books”
    He laughed, “I knew you were crazy when I fell for you”
    She smiled. He walked to her and hugged her. He pulled back asking, “When we get out of the library, will you go out with me?”
    She said, “I thought you wanted go out with Priyanka from Social”
    He laughed, “I think she can wait”

    In the morning when they got out, watchman was scolded by Librarian for this careless mistake. Even though, Kaira and Tarun still fight, they fight in their special way…through notes.

  • Scars

    Scars

    They say that every scar has a story behind it but what if those scars are the memories of someone.

     

    “I am proud of my scars” She smilingly traced her fingers over her wounds. She continued, “They tell me who I was and who I have become and a constant reminder of mistakes of past”

    Closing the file, the therapist said, “So, I guess it is our last session”

    Getting on their feet, both shook hands. She took her bag and walked out of the door. As she pressed the elevator button, her phone ringed. She answered, “Hey Emily…yes…I’ll be there…No, I would not miss it…yes…okay see you in an hour”

     

    Blood dripping down the sink, she had tears racing down her cheeks. Wounds on soul hurt more wounds on body. She wiped the tears when she heard the knock on her door. When she peeked outside, she was relieved to see her big sister. She stepped out saying, “I need to be alone. Leave me alone”

    Hurriedly, she grabbed her wrist asking, “So you could do whatever you were doing?”

    “Daisy, leave me alone. I fine”

    “Mia, you know you can talk to me whenever you want”

    Daisy made her sit on bed. Mia shrugged her hands off saying, “Why can’t they understand that I can never be like you. You and I are different. I would never be topper”

    Daisy adjusted her hair and wiping off her tears, she held her hand, “I know. I am sure they will understand with time. You don’t have to do these things to get their attention”

    “Well, apparently I am getting attention for wrong, why not this be one of them” Mia spoke showing off her newly made cut. She continued, “This at least shows that I have control over something. That I am human, not a robot who would do whatever they want me to do”

    Daisy rushed to get the first-aid box and started wrapping bandage around Mia’s wrist. Mia observed her loving sister carefully nurse the wound which she had been doing since Mia started self-harm.

     

    She settled in her chair. It was the day of her book launch. Reporters started asking questions about the book. One of the reporter asked, “You told us that it is about a girl trapped in a place, a web kind of. Is it inspired by your own life or someone else?”

    A small smile came on her lips saying, “I am a writer. Sometimes, the story would have some relevance with me or you but that doesn’t mean it is inspired by everyone. At one point, you will think that it is inspired by your life too because we all are leading similar lives. We are trapped in a web called life and are trying to find our way out. So, I would say it is inspired by everyone”

    Turning around, she asked, “Next question?”

     

    “Next question?” Daisy asked. Mia glanced at her sister, “No way, you could have finished that. It was a really tough one”

    Daisy shrugged with a smile, “Sissy, you know I am good at math”

    Mia handed her the book saying, “Okay, so finish up my homework then”

    Daisy shook her head, “No way. I am not doing that”

    Mia pouted, “Please”

    Daisy said, “I am not going to do that. You are going to do your homework. I am going to give you answers if you need any”

    She gave the book back to Mia and went on back to working on her laptop. Mia asked, “D, you are going to tutor me this time, right?”

    Daisy gave a big smile, “Yes, I know this test is important for you”

     

    “It is important” Emily said handing her the papers. It was contract with some company. She read the papers and signed them. Sitting back in her chair, she looked at the photo on her desk. Two sisters smiling together.

    “You are dead to me” their dad shouted scolding the 19-year Mia. Mia who never dared to look up was staring him right in eyes.

    She repeated again, “I am not going to do this. I don’t care what you want me to do but I am not choosing what your dreams are. I am going to follow my dreams. I am going to sing.”

    “And you think that…this crazy thing will get you money? You would be happy and settled if you choose to go to this college” their dad said in high voice. Daisy was watching their argument with their mother as usual. Mia said screaming at top of her voice, “All my life I had done what you want me to do. I can’t be like Daisy and lead a simple life. I want adventure and fun. I know I am an adult. So, shouldn’t I have a right to choose my career?”

    He shook his head, “You failed me. I should have known you would be a humiliation to the family.”

    Mia snapped, “I knew you never loved me. I was always a burden for you unlike your favourite daughter. But unlike you, she understands me and supports me”

    “Fine, if she says I’ll let you go to this competition” he said. They both turned to Daisy who was standing with her arms crossed. She started rubbing her arms and looked at Mia saying, “Mia, I think dad is right. You should look for a settled career”

    Mia was shocked. Their dad said, “So, the decision is made. Mia is going to the college to study business”

    Mia ran in her room with Daisy following her. As Daisy entered the room, Mia asked sobbing, “Why? For once in life, I wanted to stand for me against dad and you supported him. I trusted you, D.”

    Daisy replied, “I thought it would be best for you”

    Mia shouted, “Get out right now”

     

    At night, when Daisy went to call Mia for dinner, she found a letter on her bed which read:

    I would rather die than sit at desk. I trusted you D but you didn’t trust me.

    Hurriedly, she opened the door of washroom and found her little sister on floor covered in blood.

    Two people died that day. A sister who just wanted to get out and another who did a mistake by not trusting her. Self-harm was one of the gifts that she left for her older sister driven by guilt.

     

    “I’ll always love you M” she said looking at the photo and seeing those bright eyes filled with happiness.