Author: Shelja Alawadhi

  • What I Treasure the Most

    What I Treasure the Most

    Anything, be it an item of high monetary value or a tiny or simple article, can be a treasure in one’s life. Especially if it is of an important historical background, religious significance or beliefs, unique in some other way. It is owner will never part with it under any conditions. For instance, an old monk if asked why he never changes his century-old prayer wheel for a new one will reply thus: “I am a monk by virtue of heredity and this prayer-wheel was given to me by my father who had received if from my grandfather. This is the only treasure in my life which I will never dispose of for anything.”,

    Likewise, I too have an item which I value very much. It is an old ghophor (Bhutanese cup). It is, as per my estimate, more than eight decades old. I can faintly recall that it was presented to me by my grandfather a couple of days before he breathed his last. I was only sixteen. Although very old and simple, made up of mere wood, I preserve it because it is the only gift that my grandfather, who loved me dearly, could pass on to me from his sick bed which became his deathbed after two days.

    I almost always keep my Ghophor hidden from others. I take it out and use it only on special occasions and imagine that I am sharing tea with my grandfather. I had once taken it to Tashichhdzong on a Tshechy when a group of tourists wanted to buy it. They said they had found my cup to be a unique Bhutanese article, among all that they had seen in Thimphu, and one even offered me a hundred dollars for it.

    But the thought of parting with it pained me so much that I immediately put it in my bag, ran back home and hid it

  • Virtual Reality 

    Virtual Reality 

    I woke up, but … where was I? I searched in my mind for all the possible places I could be, but … no. I did not know where I was. The only thing I could see were two passageways, or I should say two tunnels in front of me. One larger than the other but I could fit inside both. Which one should I take? Which one? I kept asking myself perhaps two or three times. Then I looked down and saw my shadow, how does a shadow form without light? I looked back and saw my own salvation. It was a torchlight. It was flickering, but after a few seconds, it got extinguished.

    I took out my handkerchief from my pocket and wrapped around the torch. I only had one match, but nothing to strike it with, and I knew it would not work I tried to light it wi with my body as you see in cartoons, so I began to think. Seconds, minutes hours passed before I realized I could try and light up the match rubbing it against the wall, but it was the most stupid thing I could have done in my whole life since I broke the match. Then I decided I should start crossing one of the tunnels.

    I chose the one on the left, just because I was left-handed: and I started to walk. It was not so bad, just had to walk carefully. After a while, I felt more relieved when I heard a funny, strong growling followed by a barking that only I could recognize. It was definitely Toffee. I began to walk faster as Toffee began to bark louder, but no matter how I searched, could not find it. I was so desperate to find it. I was so desperate to find it that I started running from one side to the other, which led me to bump against the wall and pass out.

    When I woke up I was in a very different place, but once again was I? All I could see around were some sort of pear trees and insects and very beautiful aspects of nature. I was tied in a Joan ofArc style with wood all around me, all prepared to be burnt. I tried to free myself, but I could not. Suddenly I heard a drum, then some shouts, like those of cannibals. I began to get alerted and worse, afraid. I tried to calm myself but a big, loud, desperate scream behind me broke the peace I had gained and gave me the worst fright I ever had. My nerves collapsed and I passed out, again.

    For the third time I woke up, but this time I did recognize is the place. I was home, but I felt strange, like a ghost. I could fly, but I felt no one was home. I went upstairs .. or I should say “flew” upstairs. No one was there. Then I went to Mommy’s room. I saw a note that really calmed me:

    Dear son,

    Sorry I had to go to your uncle’s house urgently.

    Will be back by ten.

    Go to bed early and do not fight with Toby.

    Kisses,

    Your Mom

    All I can remember after that is that I “flew” to my room. Toby was reading my diary … again. This time I got really angry, so I took my Virtual Reality Helmet off, paid my ticket, and went home to hit him.

  • The Punk

    The Punk

    My brother’s mad on motorcars.

    Although, if you happened to ask him

    about the steering.

    He’d probably reply its a handlebar.

    It happened like this one fine day.

    We were at his friend’s house to play.

    His friend called us to the garage and showed us the Punk,

     

    His daddy’s latest piece of junk

    It had a startling purple body

    And not anything I’d call sturdy

    What car it was, I could not make out.

    So I asked my brother to clear my doubt.

    From the way he stared at me, I could clearly see,

    That when it came to cars, he was dumber than me.

    “See! Here are the keys!” His friend announced next.

    “Could you hold them I’ll be back in a sec.”

    Jingling the keys, my brother watched him go.

    Then thoughtfully turned upwards and said, “D, you know?”

    “Know what?” I asked, guessing he was up to something.

    “That I could try to drive the Punk, you’ll see? It’s nothing!”

    “All you do is insert the keys, ignite it,

    Pull back this thing, press the pedal, and hit ..”

    “Are you sure that’s it I asked him doubtfully.”

    “Of course-I’m an expert!” he replied scornfully.

    I  was not so sure, but I did not tell him that.

    Instead, I looked cautiously this way and that.

    The coast was clear, no one was about.

    “Come on! I hissed, “Let’s get it out!”

    With trembling fingers, he fumbled at the door.

    I settled inside, waiting for what was in store.

    Somehow, he managed to start The Punk.

    It seemed in pretty good shape, for a piece of junk.

    But the moment we were on the road.

    My brother’s fear clearly showed.

    “Okay, so we did it!

    Uh-well, any idea how to stop it?

    What I mean is, – I’d like to return now,

    So could you tell me how?”

    He stopped when he saw my shocked look 

    A couple of allows he quickly took, 

    “Er-just stamp on the brakes!” I prompted.

    But we continued to speed ahead. 

    Honking the horn. dodging trucks, 

    Today, I thought, we’ve run out of luck, 

    Scenes flashed past through the window.

    A couple of cows, then some boys in a row.

    Then come sparrows pecking at a cake.

    But all our attention was on to find the brake.

    Suddenly I remembered something and looked under my seat, 

    And sure enough! The emergency hand brake was wedged underneath

    I yanked it hard-as hard as I could and then- 

    The Punk jerked hard, sputtered, and stopped at the bend. 

    My brother let out the breath he’d been holding.

    While let go the handbrake that I’d been holding.

    He courageously called up Mr. Brown, his friend’s dad

    Who arrived at the spot and drove us carefully back,

    Mr. Brown never said a word during the whole ride,

    Only glazed at us when we arrived, though we tried to hide. 

    When our mom asked us about the Punk, 

    My brother winked at me and said, “Oh it’s just a piece of junk!”

  • Mind- Part 2

    Mind- Part 2

    “I … Oh, that?…. No-no-no-not you. Do you that lady? She’s my mother…” Once again  I was picking on a perfectly unknown person. The man followed my finger and gazed at the lady. I do not know what happened to my finger… In a blink of the eye, the lady had turned towards us and saw this man staring her.  She started advancing towards us. I thought I’d be safer I did not allow my presence in this area anymore-at least not now.  I ran, leaving the man thrown fate … I could hearaloud’SLAAASH feminine hand, striking masculine cheek. …”

    Dr. Ghai banged the book shut.It still had a hundred chapters to be read. He got in his car and drove to Sonu’s house. The house was a perfect one for a medium-class family He pressed the door-bell. Son’s first father came out:

    “Doctor? Come … come in! we owe you a lot of Thanks for saving our son’s life!

    “Yes.. yes.. .that tumor was nothing. But there something more serious… “

    “What?” yelled Mr. Nathan, “another operation?” 

    “No … We’ll discuss it inside.” 

    The atmosphere after six minutes was perfect for a silent talk. The juices had been drunk, jokes had been cracked just to ease off the pressure) and most important of all, Sonu was out. 

    “Have you seen suspense or horror films lately?” Dr. Ghai asked abruptly … 

    “Why? We see such films almost every weekend. My family is an avid lover of suspense films,” Mrs. Nathan replied. 

    “Do you watch the news?”

    “Of course. At five in Hindi, at eight in English and at ten in Tamil. ”

    “Oh! I see. Now, have you ever discouraged Sonu?”

    “Not exactly, but he gets a sound thrashing if he gets low marks.”

    “Now, I see the problem,” the doctor mumbled, “I’ll tell you what. Seeing so many suspense films have been him into a suspicious young leaf. Why he even hears time-bombs in wrist-watches! He suspects everyone who passes by because you do nothing but watch news on the telly. Okay … You should watch it. But give some time to your child too. The effect of so much corruption and greed shown on TV. has taken roots into Sonu’s mind. He is only six and this is the time when a child’s brain is molded. Do not thrash him too much. It makes him feel as if he is disliked by everyone and so the only thing he finds to make himself attractive is to behave like a clown.

    I guess you have understood me? This is the problem. 

    After some commercial-free pause, 

    Mr. Nathan opened his mouth:

    “Thanks a lot for opening our eyes. We’ll try our best to remove these notions from Sonu’s mind. Thank you. But how did you find all this?”

     “Oh?” Mr. Ghai smiled “by borrowing books from the brain!”

  • Mind- Part 1

    Mind- Part 1

    Dr. Ghai carefully wiped the sweat from his brow, the making of the swelter dropped into the open cerebral matter that lay before him among a mass of instruments. What he did not know was that the empty roll of the ink-blotter (which had been the easiest replacement for the more obligatory blood-blotter …) was still and unremoved from the open-brain of a six-year-old he was operating upon.

    He carefully eased his long, protruding e gray the matter and snaked it meant from into w he thought was a point of interest. With a little more piercing and pulling, he located the hatch and by clicking it open. he stepped into Sonus highly confidential memory chamber. He stretched out his hand and pulled out a book from a big-Big-pile of books which he knew contained all that Sonu had experienced in his six years of mortality. He kept it aside and stitched the cerebellum back, packed it into the skull and fixed it onto the tiny patients’ forehead and led him out of the operation hall. The scene outside the theater was pathetic. Sonu’s mother was weeping and his grandmother was pleading. His digital father was pacing and his grandfather was trying to keep up with the former’s stride. As soon as yesterday Ghai was on the scene, everyone jumped up and rushed to him:

    “Sonu…”

    “Ah! Operation successful. Congrats!”

    There was sudden rupture of happiness as Ghai was led into a whirl of ecstasy. The surgeon was all the while trying his best to conceal the stolen diary from the child’s brain.

    It was the evening as Ghai was sitting on has easy-chair with the burglarized book in his hand. On the cover page, the following title ran: “Sonu Nathan’s secret thoughts 1996, book one “.

    January 1, 1996:

    Hello New Gyar Sonu. You won’t believe me, but all the people in my surrounding world think that I am a lunatic. I have no objection…

    After all, I do not expect anyone to say, ‘Sonu! You are the wisest chap the universe’ … What’s more, the world has a huge conspiracy for me. Man! You really can’t trust anyone these days and so I look at everyone- EVERY MOVING LIVING ORGANISM- with suspicion and contempt. There’s the no-no to the wickedness the people can limit themselves to these days. Anyway, I have to do my homework, which I must say Is a huge bundle and why? Just because tomorrow is a holiday and teachers do not want me to enjoy it…

    January 3

    I was just to go to school when I heard my new wrist watch ticking. I know only time-bombs tick. Vinay’s watch does not. He says it’s digital. Heaven knows what he means by it. Getting back to the point, I had also seen a film yesterday in which the hero. Vijay had found ticking device. He had thrown it away just before it got busted. What’s more, it had a needle too! Instantly, my genius brain identified the culprit-Uncle Parle! For it was he who had come and given me the ticking device yesterday. Gosh! Even the closest of your neighbors can be your enemies! Anyway, I had no time to think… So I threw the watch in the air like Vijay had. It didn’t burst. Maybe it would, later. I ran off. I was just hoping that the bomb would go off as soon as that uncle of mine stepped in- a taste own medicine, perhaps. Just then the school bus arrived. No sooner had I stepped into it that Vinay popped his first question:

    “Hey! Sonu! You told me about your new wrist-watch. Where’s it ‘?”

    Aha! So Vinay in league with my uncle. Look! He did not even wish me “Good morning, as he usually does. So very interested in the “watch”, eh? Pretending you know a thing eh? .. “Mind your business,” I replied. I could clearly see the disappointed look on his face. Not so happy to see me alive?

    January 4

    The headmaster the school-bus commented today:

    “Sonu Nathan! … Cut your hair once in a while. is too long for a boy…”

    What? I never expected this out of HIM! Does not he know what goes on in the saloon? If he does not, I do. Why, just yesterday, my dad had gone to the coiffeur to cut his cheek hairs and returned home with half of his cheek gone instead. No sir! I LOVE my neck. guess, he purposely wants me to get a haircut -to get rid of me …

    January 5

    After the morning formalities in the school which was the agonizing assembly, conducted intentionally wants the cruel Sun, with the brutal drill master (who, to my annoyance never got ill and stayed at home for a day), was ready to face the teacher. She came in, fully equipped, with a cane and some books. Pity, she uses the cane to thrash us. I just love sugar canes. They are so juicy. If she does not know about tasty sugar-canes, how can she be called ‘learned’? Anyway, she asked me the first question:

    “Who was Jahangir?”

    Jahangir? I know a zillion thing about him -he was a man, a human being, etc. etc.

    Unfortunately, the teacher always canes me when I give her such answers. I’ll try another retort today:

    ” Uh! He was a person with redhead and… ” I was trying hard to remember spiderman … part carmine and part blue stomach?” When the unexpected happened-WHACK!I do not know why she cracked me-maybe was jealous that I knew the correct answer. After all, it was she who had asked the question?

    January 6

    I found my best chance and escaped the school campus during the recess period. I ran to the nearest bus-station and hastened into a moving bus. A chap, dressed in gray came up to me:

    ” Give me your money, boy. Where are you going?”

    Saying this, he took a booklet full of pink and yellow papers which seemed to be ticketed.

    “Why should I give you my money?” I replied.

    “Because ..” he said, “I am the conductor and you are the passenger ”

    “And why should I believe you are the conductor. In school buses, the conductors do not ask for money. They thwack children who do not behave themselves … You are a thief-THIEF-THIEF! ”

    No one moved. All the people in the bus were together with the thief ‘conductor’.

    There was no escape. So, I handed him twenty rupees. Okay.

    The next thing I knew was a man offering me a chocolate.

    ” Here Small boy, take this.”

    I took it. On the cover, it was written MINTED CHOCOLATE. I could not perceive the meaning of the first word. I took off the cover and put the brown thing near my ears No ticking sound. I smelt it. Yes, a strange smell, like Polo the mint with the hole. But this thing had no hole. So, it must be a tranquilizer. Perhaps, after fainting, this man will steal my shoes. I threw the choco out. To avoid further trouble, I threw my shoes too. The man frowned. Aha! So, he was not happy with my spoiling his plans? Children of today are politicians of tomorrow.

    When I got down near my house, I saw this street dog dotted in front of my house. This was the last thing I had expected from mom. Keeping dogs to prevent me from entering the house before completing almost six hours at school? Okay, I ran off.

    January 7

    I was wandering about aimlessly in the streets when I saw a man approach me

    “Child, are you lost?”

    At first, I was perplexed. Why could be the purpose of this question? Immediately, my useful brain came up with the only possibility. As soon as I would say ‘yes’, this man would kidnap me and….I shuddered. So, I replied:

    “Uh…no…that’s my father,” I said pointing to a stall where a man, who didn’t even know, was happily munching away samosas I think was just bad- timing that this chap looked back and noticed me pointing at him. When the supposed kidnapper, had left this man a formidable one, came up to me:

    “So … young man? Why were you pointing at me?

  • Caught

    Caught

    The wind, after a harsh struggle with the branches, flew away somewhere in the white snow desert, somewhere far … far, far away. It’s passing through my bones, giving me creeps all over. A lone wolf started howling in the mountain and then another one and another one. They attached one to another in a wide song. The blinding mountain sunlight was even stronger with the reflection from the frozen surface of snow that made it unbearable for the eyes and made you sneeze.

    This was the picturesque moment from the window of the mountain house. Inside the little sparks from the fireplace attended to get in the warm room but were stopped by the grate. I stood by the window. My mind was somewhere where no man has ever been. I turned to the window on the other side of the room. From that spot, you could see the pine wood that spread all over the huge mountain. It was getting more and more stuff on the top of it. I turned my glance from that place and sat in the middle of the room and focused on the snow that melted on the window from the internal heat. There was no one as far as I could see. But my thoughts were broken by my girlfriend’s hand that touched my shoulder in my mindless standing. I shivered at the touch that was totally unexpected.

    “Damn you!” I yelled at her as she laughed.

    “You should see the expression on your face,” said Sidney almost dying from laughter.

    “Do not you ever do that again!”

    I said with an angry expression that wrinkled my forehead.

    But then I relaxed and started laughing with Sidney.

    “Hey, early waker,” she whispered while she leaned over my shoulder, “is there any chance that you have made me some cocoa?”

    “Yes.”

    “And how about going for a walk in the woods and getting close to Canada?”

    “You do not walk over the northern territory in a day, Sidney, “I said with a half-open mouth and a certain dose of unserious thought. That noon we got out of the chalet with full equipment for deep snow. After a long walk, we stopped in the woods. The places where the sun broke between the branches were rare and they made shiny spots on the deep snow.

    “There you go, Sid,” I said.

    “It cannot get colder than this.”

    I shivered under the whole pile clothes on me.

    “Wow! It’s gorgeous!” she said, looking at a deer that ran through the snow not very far from us.

    His gallant walk made Sid follow him in spite my warnings. After my running and yelling everything was hopeless. I was in the middle of-of nowhere! I was afraid that Sid had there and now like I did not know where she was. My thoughts were suddenly broken by homebound which cracked through the woods. It was like a million giant sequoias falling at one place, at one time. The air shivered with strange vibrations from the frozen soil. I turned back and saw the huge avalanche coming right at me. My knees were locked in one position. I paid frozen with fear. The huge mountain of snow was sliding unmistakably on me. Just as I was looking into the eyes of death an inner strength took me with long steps from death’s hug. I pressed against a tree while my heart wanted to jump out of my chest Slowly but surely I got out of the trap I was in.

    I sat on a rock and said with a smile on my lips: “Who said that Canada was a’doll’country?”

    I put my hand in my pocket searching for the compass that was not there.

    “Oh, my God!” I yelled, “now I’m really lost wandered around for five hours and finally came to the place where I was before. The sun that was heading west gave a reddish-purple glow to the snow that somewhere covered Sidney’s body. Somewhere in the dark half of my mind did a lot of thinking as I wandered in the wilderness.

    Suddenly the deer from earlier stood in front of me.

    “Alex! “I heard a familiar voice while was looking at the cute animal in front of me.

    “God, I’m hallucinating!” I cried whipping the defrosted snow of my palm.

    “Alex!” cried somebody’s voice angrily. I thought that the deer was talking to me.But the moment I turned back, I saw Sid laughing at me.

    “What so funny?” I asked hardly able to hold my own laughter. You really thought I lost myself. Oh, Alex.”

    “No, of course not, “I said with relief.” By the way, where were you, Sid?”

    “I was at the chalet all the time after I followed the deer. You ought to meet and touch one of them. By the way, where were you?”

    You do not want to know, Sid. You do not want to know,” I finished quickly.

    The night caught the house by the red-brick fireplace.

    “Have you ever felt caught, Sid, I mean really caught?”

    “No. Why?” She answered drinking off the last drops of cocoa in the cup.

    “I felt that way today, Sid, and I almost felt it permanently”

    “Do not be silly Alex! What are you talking about?”

    “Nothing,” I answered, “Let’s go to bed. It’s late.

    The dawn rose up in fog. It was snowing and the wind after a harsh battle flew somewhere far … far … far away.

  • The ‘I-Know-that girl’

    The ‘I-Know-that girl’

    I don’t know whether you know her or not. Perhaps you do. Anyway, you probably know someone like her. This little girl that I know used to think that she knew everything and she was only-8 years old.

    When she daddy told her anything she would say “I know that.” Or if Mummy pointed out something new in a shop window she would say, “Oh! I have seen that before. She just would not admit that there was anything she didn’t know. It was quite impossible to surprise her with anything. If you took her to town and bought her something like a new umbrella for her birthday and then asked her afterward if she was pleased with it, she would say, “Well, I thought I was going to get an umbrella, anyway.

    Of course, nobody liked to take her anywhere. If people came to her house and wanted to give the children a treat, they would whisper to her daddy “I think we will only take the boys this time”. Of course, they were too polite to say what they thought of the little girl but Daddy knew what was the matter.

    One day there was great excitement in the home of “Miss-I-know-that”. Daddy had announced that he was going to take her to London all by herself. How pleased she was! And to think that she was the only one going!

    On the way, her daddy tried to cheer her up by pointing out all the things that most little girls would be glad to see.

    “I know that,” she said,”I remember seeing that before. At last, Daddy got tired and changed his mind by saying, “Supposing, you were to lose me in London.” What would you do? ”

    “Oh, go home,” she said as she did not care.

    “But how can you? “asked Daddy”.

    “Oh just go to the station and get a train.”

    “But how would you know the way?”

    “Oh, well, that’s easy; I know that.”

    An hour later they were in London.

    There were crowds of people hurrying about but the little girl didn’t seem to notice them. She was too interested in a statue at the top of the pillar. She did not like to admit that this was something new to her, but at last, she turned round to ask Daddy all about it.

    She stopped and looked around for Daddy-but there was no Daddy to be seen.

    “Daddy!”She shouted.

    No answer.

    “Daddeeee!”

    Still there was no reply. Daddy had gone and she was alone.

    Then she began to cry. After a little while policeman came across her and asked very kindly, “What is the matter?”

    “I’m lost! “She sobbed.”

    “Lost! Why, who were you with?”

    “My Daddy, and he’s gone!”

    “Gone where?

    “I do not know, she said still crying.”

    “Where do you live?”

    “I do not know.”

    “Then come along with me.”

    “No, I do not want to go to the police station.”

    Soon her Daddy came there and she was very happy.

    “Oh, Daddy, where did you go and leave me here?” she asked.” You see, “said Daddy,” I only wanted to see whether you really did know the way home as you said you did.”

    And even after that when she was tempted to say, “I know that” she thought of the policeman and did not say it.

  • The Beggar Man

    The Beggar Man

    I saw him sitting on the dusty footpath one day

    As he tried to shelter his brown body from the scorching sun ofMay,

    He was dressed in dirty rags, torn here and there

    As each passer-by went, he would only mournfully stare

    His brows were shaggy, his hair was greyish white

    With his little bowl held in his hand, he looked a pathetic sight!

    I saw with some pity, he had a missing arm and leg

    And this little misfortune had led the poor dirty man to beg.

    There were few coins in his little begging bowl

    Not quite enough to buy him a meal as a whole

    He a small board on wheels to move from place to place

    Misery, hopelessness was writ on his wrinkled face

    Passers-by took little notice of the old beggar man

    To help him in his misery there was no willing man!

    I watched him for a long time then as I slowly approached him, He looked at me hopefully, his hand no longer limp

    I looked at his dusty, outstretched palm remembering wise men’s words,

    “If you help a beggar on the road, you only make him worse.”

    He stared at me with misty eyes, may be hoping for a coin or two

    I looked away, mumbling, “Sorry, I’ve none to give you.”

    The old man sighed, looked down and took his hand away

    I walked on, without a glance back at him, my way.

  • Astonishing…Is the Sky above us

    Astonishing…Is the Sky above us

    The sky,

    astoundingly beautiful

    the colors,

    orange, yellow,

    they pass before your eyes,

    white, blue,

    the birds flap their elegant wings,

    the wind is blowing gently,

    the sun shines brightly,

    the sky is at peace.

    As the world wakes up to another day,

    the sky keeps still,

    like the breath of death,

    the clouds flow like a quiet spirit,

    passing by it’s swirling existence,

    like a whirlpool swallowing up, its enemy.

    As night comes,

    the sky transforms,

    the colors,

    orange-red, purple,

    astounding to all those who watch,

    with its amazing passing,

    like a soul being sucked into the blackness of space,

    like the little child being kidnapped,

    like the silence that fills you up while you sleep.

    Then,

    another day comes,

    the sky lights up,

    the sun sheds its awesome power on the land,

    for now,

    the sky is breathtaking,

    yet,

    it is just another day,

    in an eternity of years.

  • A Golden Autumn

    A Golden Autumn

    A forest bathed in gold,

    Heavy branches of the earth,

    The last flock is going away,

    The tired leaves are falling down.

    Our southern sun is smiling,

    The white “Thracian wind is running

    And the amber wheat grain is shining

    In the hands of a good friend….

    Oh, How beautiful the earth is today

    And the road beneath my feet is still.

    And the forest is already tuned-

    Ready to start singing my verse….