Tag: Relation

  • Ray of Hope

    Ray of Hope

    The story is about a woman who loses her husband, how she copes with the loss and emerges out as a strong woman.

     

    The phone rang.

    Sabitha who was in the kitchen came rushing towards the phone.

    Wiping the sweat from her face with her sari she answered the call-“Hello Mrs. Rathore speaking. Who is this?”

    The voice at the other side answered in a melancholic way-“I am sorry Mrs.Rathore, Mr. Rathore passed away in the military attacks that happened yesterday”.

    Sabitha couldn’t believe what she was hearing. The phone slipped from hands. 7-year-old Raji came playing with a ball towards her mom. However, she sensed something wrong. There was sadness written all over her mother’s face.

    In a very devastating voice, Sabitha hugged her little daughter saying-“He hasn’t kept his promise. He left us” and started crying. Raji didn’t understand what her mother was saying. She was too little to understand the pain of losing loved ones.  But seeing her mother crying was enough for her to feel sad and cry.

    His body arrived. He was paid an honorable last respect at his funeral. He indeed was a great soldier who died protecting his motherland. Everyone was in mourning, some for the loss of a great soldier, some for the loss of a great person, his mother for the loss of a great son but nothing could surpass the feelings of anguish Sabitha felt. She loved him, loved him truly. Every little thing reminded her of him and the very thought of him being no more in this world, of not being able to listen to his voice, not being able to talk to him crushed her to pieces. After the funeral was completed, she entered their room. She looked at their photo on the wall, took it and hugged it and let out a loud cry she was holding in. Settling at a corner in the room, she reminisced the first time they met, of the times they spent together.

    She belonged to an orthodox family with two girls. She was the eldest. Her father loved her but never encouraged her for further education. She wanted to pursue higher education but he was hell bent upon marrying her off. Dejected and unable to oppose her father and with no support from anyone she decided to agree with the marriage. The guy who came to see her was Aakash. They talked very little and she was not even remotely interested. Marriage plans were finalized and things happened fast. She became Mrs. Aakash Rathore.

    Finally, when they have been left alone Aakash told her –”I will encourage you if you want to pursue higher education. I shall also take care of the expenses”.

    This was a new beginning for Sabitha who lost all hope of ever studying further. The bond between them only strengthened with time and very soon they were like one soul in two bodies.

    She believed he was the reason for her to become an independent woman.  Raji was like a beautiful gift that entered their life to make it brighter. But now everything has become dark.

    “My world has fallen apart. I neither find any strength nor any point living in a world without him”, she thought to herself.

    But then little Raji came running towards her and tugging at her sari said   “Mamma! I am feeling hungry”.

    Sabitha snapped out from the rush of thoughts she was having until then.

    She looked at Raji lovingly thinking-“How could I ever think of leaving my little child alone in this world. I have found my reason to live and live I shall, as a strong woman who my daughter can look up to”.

    She hugged Raji and kissed on her cheeks while hot streaks of tears rolled down from her cheeks.

    Thus with a new ray of hope and rekindled faith in life,Sabitha moved on to start a new phase in her life.

  • Fiona

    Fiona

    The short story puts into words the everlasting relationship between a student and her teacher, which was built through a brief amount of time and only grew stronger through that time.

     

    Lea walked toward the gate of her apartment building. The serenity which embraced that November afternoon, was suddenly interrupted by the chirping of the birds.

    It was 3 p.m. Lea stood just outside the gate. The road outside the gate wasn’t unusually empty, especially at this hour. She stood waiting for an auto rickshaw to whisk her away to her desired destination. Bombay is honored with a pleasant climate usually in the months of December and January. But, it was oddly pleasant that afternoon. The cool breeze which blew after taking short intervals every now and then, kissed her face.

    After waiting for a few minutes, Lea noticed an auto rickshaw advancing toward her. She put her hand out, signaling the driver to stop the rickshaw. He stopped right in front of her and Lea got into the rickshaw and established a small space on the seat. She told the rickshaw driver where she wanted to go and instantly he set the rickshaw going.

    Lea watched the places pass by in front of her, in flashes and slowly she found herself drifting into her own world.
    Lea hated firecrackers.  She hated the sound of firecrackers. Every time she heard firecrackers, it made her feel like a bomb had exploded somewhere.

    But exactly a year ago, it wasn’t the sound of firecrackers which trembled every bone in her body, but the news of the death of Fiona.

    It was the day of Diwali. People were celebrating the festival of lights with gusto and amidst all the celebration, Lea woke up to that day with a call from Fiona’s husband that his wife and her teacher, had passed away after becoming victim to an accident. As soon as she ended the phone call, she sat still on her bed. She felt like someone had just pierced a knife through her throat. A certain numbness had eaten her up in that moment. She couldn’t believe that she had lost Fiona forever. She couldn’t breathe. She started gasping for breath. Lea felt like a very significant part of her ceased to exist, without which, a sense of emptiness began creeping onto her.

    Lea grew up with parents who were overly strict. She was never really close to them and her coyness never allowed her to make too many friends or get close to anyone, even. Fiona came into her life when she was 12 years old. Fiona was her 6th grade class teacher. Fiona would notice how Lea would sit by herself in class, not talking to anyone and scribbling poems in one corner, in her little notebook.

    Lea had a deep inclination toward writing from a very young age and Fiona understood how good she was at it, through the little poems Lea would create.

    Fiona in fact, was the first person to encourage Lea’s writing. She would encourage Lea to participate in various writing competitions. Through that entire time, Lea slowly started opening up herself with Fiona. She began to share a lot more than she expected herself to, with Fiona. Lea saw both the kind of mother and father that she always wanted, the sibling she never had and a best friend, in Fiona. And Lea came to become more like a daughter and less a student, to Fiona.

    Lea trembled when she heard a voice calling out to her. Suddenly she looked up and realized that it was the auto rickshaw driver. She shut her eyes tightly and opened them, trying to come back to her reality. She exited out of the rickshaw, paid the money to the driver and walked toward the florist which was close to the cemetery. She bought a bouquet of roses.

    Fiona loved roses. The red ones, to be specific. She carried the bouquet of roses and walked toward the cemetery with them.

    She stood for a few seconds looking at the grave in which Fiona was buried in, a year ago. Lea remembered the time after the funeral, when she walked up to Fiona’s husband. The pair of them stood looking at each other, not knowing what to say. They just held each other’s hands and tears came cascading down their cheeks. They let their tears speak the words of sadness and hurt they felt about Fiona’s death, that their mouths could not utter.

    It’s been a year since the death of Fiona. Fiona doesn’t cry anymore thinking about Fiona because with Fiona it is only the happy memories which remain. Lea doesn’t feel that she has lost Fiona, anymore because she’s there, with her always and forever.

     

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  • True Love : A Lost Treasure

    True Love : A Lost Treasure

    YEH ISHQ NAHI AASAN ITNA SAMAJH LIJIYE

    IK AAG KA DARIYA HAI AUR DOOB KE JAANA HAI….

    The lines from a poem have depths of an ocean and desolation of a heart.”LOVE”-The word which has lost its meaning for the current generation. Relationships these days are no more than an entertainment source or a way to prove it to the world “I AM NOT ALONE, I HAVE THAT SOMEONE SPECIAL!!!”

    True love is perished and you would find rare scenarios where it has managed to flourish. Whatsapp, Facebook, Texts, Calling and Snap chat have replaced meetings, letters and feelings. You fall in love within a day and get over with it within months. You can touch each other, but your souls never connected. You had a physical connection, but the mental connection is nowhere to be seen. Understanding, loyalty and trust is defined in last seen on Whatsapp, Status updates on Face book and stories on Snap chat.

    Jealousy, Insecurities and blaming each other has become a part and parcel for every second love bird. Self-centred and perfectionist nature of the youth has taken over the only true feeling that a human can possess. Accepting flaws, making compromises ,working hard to never let go is AN OLD SCHOOL  PHILOSOPHY THESE DAYS.

    Honesty has lost its way too soon and expressing what you actually are, what you desire and how far you see your relationship going is suffering incredible negligence .Breakups are so stereotyped that you will lose faith in the word “LOVE”. Betrayal, misunderstandings, time and space are the nouns that could be easily added to the reasons of the present day murkier relationships.

    Relationships are made within frameworks that don’t take us out of our comfort zones and are lucrative. Expectations turn into disappointments and things fall apart.”I LOVE YOU” is said too soon and the depth of what is said is lost. People don’t talk to listen and solve, they tend to reply and prove the one on the opposite side wrong.

    LOVE is meant to be unconditional. As soon as condition comes, it turns into a convenient transaction. It can never be convenient and strong people tend to cross the strenuous journey.

    Love should be made a Quality and challenging the defences that limit true love can make it work. True love takes time to build up. Love comes into picture when a year of infatuation or attraction fades and few arguments results in drifting away of couples. The purest form of true love is experienced by a human when he/she falls in love for the very first time. The death of first amour makes a person reluctant towards second chances.

    Love fades away with time…It is the mutual understanding, compatibility ,sacrifices, fixing if something is broken and loyalty that stays. Years of relationships drift away by things that are temporary. Human behaviour makes us fall for the idea of love where everything is just a fairy tale but real love involves struggles, efforts, wait and pain.

    Love is not something you need; it should be something you want. One should realise the difference between HIS NEEDS AND HIS WANTS.

    “LOVE IS INFINITE AND LOVE IS FREE,

    LOVE IS ETERNAL AND LOVE IS DEEP SEA,

    LOVE IS JUST TWO WORDS,

    IT IS YOU AND ME…”

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  • If Words Were Enough

    If Words Were Enough

    The story lingers around a father daughter relationship.


    “What have you done to your hair, Jamie?” Catechized Annie with a simper on her beautiful pale skinned face.
    “What…WHAT happened, my love?” He cross questioned with a bewildered look.
    “Those pins and rubber bands? What are you up to?” Giggled Annie expecting an explanation for those colourful hairpins and pony tails on his hair.

    “Ha-ha… Ohh these  …” and suddenly he was interrupted by a sweet little voice of their three year old daughter” Dada…Sit … I have not yet completed.” The culprit for that look of her Dad came running out of her room with her tiny right hand open towards the person she wanted to show her creativity on and her innocent eyes were convincing enough for Jamie to look as stupid as his daughter wanted him to be. 

    A tear rolled down from the eyes of a grown up Sarah when that sweet childhood memory made her realize how her Dada left no stone unturned for her happiness. The door of her room opened up and Jamie came in on his wheelchair.” Why are you crying darling?” Asked an anxious father to his daughter on her wedding day.” I will miss you “she said in her choked up voice and Jamie could not stop his tears.

    He could not walk for a next few months as he had an accident while driving to his job. A lavish wedding waited up with the bride looking the most beautiful girl in the world. An August wedding with the white theme and a beautiful tent in the lawn waited for the bride to complete the ceremony. Jamie had a surprise for the girl he loved the most in this world.

    The wheelchair was given up and he stood up with his legs shaking to accompany his daughter hand in hand for the ceremony.

    Taken aback by her Dad’s surprise Sarah started crying like an infant and her Dada hugged her tight taking her to the stage.
    He took out a piece of paper from his black suit and started to recite a poem.
    “Ahmm… Attention please…This is for you My Princess “said a shaking voice of a father for whom his daughter was the world.

    “I Saw It in Your Eyes My Little Doll”
    “I never knew I had a Heart 
    The day I first met you was the start
    Your eyes spoke when words couldn’t
    Seeing you grow up was the best thing I could have done
    Infinity is just a word for my love for you
    You are my life and I wish I never bid adieu
    Thank You”

    Years later, Sarah gave birth to a baby girl and her Dada was the happiest person dancing in joy holding his granddaughter in his hand. Tears of delight fell from his aged eyes and he named her Robin.
     He knew he doesn’t have much time left to live and a year later Sarah lost the king of her life to a cardiac arrest. Turmoil of emotions ran through her mind and recovering from her Dad’s death was unbearable.
    Robin turned three and one day when Sarah came back from work she saw her husband’s and Robin’s face full of powder, lipsticks and all the cosmetics Sarah had. Sarah started crying as she missed her FATHER……  

    She turned out to her diary she kept in her cupboard for years and wrote down something for the first time. It said:

    “Dear Dada,
    Until we meet Again….
    Reminiscence from the day I learnt to walk holding your hand till the day you ditched me and left for Heaven will always bring a smile to my face.
    If only I could get you back for a while and talk to you like we used to…I have so much to tell you…I hope you can see how much I search for you in the brightest of stars and Robin keeps pointing here and there at the sky looking for her Grandpa…
    Dada… I still get kisses and hugs but none of them is as warm as yours…
    I have everything, but something is missing…
    I wish love was enough to keep you by my side…
    I remember everything and whatever is remembered never dies… 
    I Miss You
    Sarah.”

    Sarah broke down into tears, took out her favourite dress gifted by her Dada and wept. A silent wind blew from the window and she knew her Dada was there.

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  • Can love happen twice ?

    Can love happen twice ?

     

    I’m on a date. Not with the man I love. I’ve loved once & probably never will again.

    From what I’ve learnt about you from our constant virtual chats on the internet, we’re in the same boat. Your love story never started because she never said yes. Mine ended when I caught him cheating on me. My love for him never ended though. Neither did yours, for her.

    Is our date really a date? What are we doing? I look at you awkwardly gulp the wine, trying to make small talk with me & all I can do is remember my first date with him. All smiles & giggles. Coy glances & flirtatious talks. But, you’re nothing like him. You’re just a mess. You’re probably wondering what it would be like to have her sitting in front of you instead of me.

    We’re only two lonely lovesick strangers looking for love. So, what if we don’t love each other? Is it wrong for us to seek love from others when we have been forsaken by the ones we love?

    The most fortunate ones find love from the ones they love. The rest of us cannot afford to choose & consider ourselves fortunate to find any love at all.

    I look into your eyes. You look into mine & quickly lower your gaze & start fidgeting with your spoon. I smile.

    We talk about the weather, our favourite places, food, books, authors, movies, dreams, fears, aspirations.

    You tell me that you want to get over her. I tell you that I can help, but I cannot compete with her. You assure me that I wouldn’t have to. You know I wish to forget him too. We’d help each other. Are we using each other? Perhaps, but we don’t mind.

    We split the bill & leave the restaurant. We bid adieu & I start walking towards home with faint steps. Another lonely night awaits me. Another sleepless night tortured by his thoughts & memories. The picture of him in bed with a stranger.

    Suddenly, I feel a tap on my shoulder. Turning around, I’m relieved to see you again. I don’t want to spend the night alone, you say. I smile.

    We walk together to your home. Just two forlorn people looking for an escape from loneliness.

    Your room is comfortable. You come close to me. Close enough to feel your breath upon me. I do not push you away. You lower your mouth upon mine. I do not resist.

    Your mouth tastes nothing like his. Yet, when I close my eyes, I can feel his lips on mine instead of yours. Are you thinking about her too?

    Your hands wander on my tingling skin. Do I remind you of her? You hold me tight in your arms as I rest my head on your chest. Do you wish to hold her instead?

    I’m grateful for the warmth of your skin. We fall asleep soon enough. Did you dream of her? Can we ever do this without thinking of them?

    Can we ever love again? We’ll never know unless we try, will we?

  • God in a Coffee Shop

    God in a Coffee Shop

    Two strangers from different places who meet in a coffee shop decide to interact with each other, oblivious of what is happening in each other's lives. Yet one of them leaves a mark on the other and encourages her to continue with her own life and move forward. 

     

    'I'm sorry, I like you but I don't like you enough, I need time… I need time to think. I'll talk to you. Later.'

    These words were playing on repeat in my brain as I pushed the door open.

    'Good afternoon Ma'am ! Seats for two I presume?

    No, I just need seat for one, not two this time.

    'Yes. Thank you very much'

    I put down my bag and looked around.

    Love. Everywhere.

    The only odd one out in the cafe was me. Alone. The other people in the café probably didn't care I was alone. But in my mind they did, so I tried to act like I was waiting for someone.

    But how long could I fool random strangers. When the waiter came with the order I just looked at him and said, ' One Hazelnut Frappe'

    'That's it Ma'am?'

    Oh how I wish it wasn't.

    'Yes, thank you'

    I took a book outta my bag and tried to read it but stupid association centre of my brain just would not comprehend the beautiful piece of literature. Damn.

    "Hey, I need help'"he said

    "What?"

    "There's this girl, I really like, and I don't know how to approach her"

    "Oh-my-god! Who is she?"

    I never realised I could hide my feelings so well till that day. I did not realise how emotionally strong I was till that day. I didn't realise that I could genuinely love a person so much, that I'd do anything to make them happy even though it meant my heart being pulverised into pieces.

    "Ma'am, your Hazelnut Frappe'

    Sometimes you don't know where memories take you, you're probably staring at something but all you see is the movie of your past. As I broke outta my memory trance, I realised I wasn't the only one who was sitting alone. A foreigner, was sitting in the table next to me and he unlike me, was enjoying sitting alone. As his eyes caught mine, he smiled at me.

    " Hello!"

    Friendly. That was my first impression of him.

    "Hey!"

    " Pretty hot here, huh? How do you Indians manage?" , he said as he was wiping off the sweat of his face and looking for the nearest air conditioner.

    The summer heat I can manage, but the heat generated by the turmoil in my heart is something I'm sweating about.

    "It's okay, we're used to it I guess, and if we do feel very hot we come to a cafe like this and order something cold" I pointed to his hot coffee

    He chuckled

    " I'm Steve"

    Steve.

    "I'm Farhan"

    "Hi Farhan! I'm Chandrayee"

    It was fun to see the perplexed look on his face after he heard my name. Outta all the confused post-hearing-my- name faces I'd seen so far that was the cutest and the funniest.

    "I'm Chandrayee"

    No look at all.

    He'd probably heard so many Indian weird names that he didn't even really care anymore.

    "So you're here alone?" He asked

    I looked down at my Frappe and pretend like it wasn't a big deal.

    "Yeah, going home. Thought I'd just grab something cold. You?"

    "I was supposed to meet a friend, now that he isn't here, here I am sipping hot brewed coffee"

    "Where are you from?" I took a sip from my frappe. Damn. It didn't taste like it should've. Too much sugar.

    "Ohio"

    "That's pretty neat"

    "Yeah"

    Silence. So that was it. We as two complete strangers had nothing to talk about and neither was I interested in saying anything. The frappe disaster spoiled my already troubled mood.

    I got up and as I did, he looked up and said, "you're leaving?"

    "Yeah. I have to catch the metro"

    "I wanted to say something to you. Don't mind please"

    I froze.

    "Chandrayee, I have to say something to you. Don't mind. Please"

    I tried to put on my 'I'm okay' look but I knew what was coming.

    "The thing is, I'm scared. I'm scared that you like me alot and I can't really like you back the way you do. I like you, but not enough. I'm sorry."

     

    "Depends on what you say, but yeah I'll try not mind" I put down my bag in the seat in front of him

    "I've been practicing this thing, I learnt it from my friend, talking to God and trying to hear what he says and as I sat with you, I got this feeling. He was trying to say something and I thought I'd share it with you. You don't mind right?

    Had this been some random Indian I would've scoffed on his face and asked him to mind his business. But coming from an American, I could really try to believe this isn't hocus pocus.

    "Go on"

    "God says he loves you.."

    I thought God loved everybody, why would especially say that to me. I'm just a heartbroken girl.

    "… And he knows you're really confused right now. You do deserve an answer. But he wants you to give it sometime. Give it a little bit of time and everything will be clear."

    I had a lump in my throat and I could feel my eyes getting wet. I picked up my bag and smiled at him.

    "Thank you. I appreciate you sharing it with me"

    He smiled back.

    And as I was about to leave, he looked at me with a queer face and said

    "You have a really weird name"

    I laughed and waved at him

    Someone's perplexed face made it to the top of the list.

     

  • Till We Meet Again

    Till We Meet Again

    Akash and Muskan are meant for each other. When they miss a chance to meet each other the first time around, destiny keeps throwing them together again and again. 

     

    The room was comfortably dipped in darkness when a figure slunk in through the door and came to stand by the bed. The person watched the sleeping body on the bed for a few seconds before snorting softly and pulling open the curtains. Sunlight poured in, bathing every inch of the room in warm yellow, and still the man on the bed slept on. The man’s friend, who had crept in earlier, grabbed his shoulder and shook roughly.

     

    “Akash, get up, you kumbhkaran!”

     

    The sleeping man, or Akash, squirmed around and covered his face with the blanket. “Go away, Harry,” his muffled grunt was heard from beneath the sheets.

     

    “It’s half past ten, you idiot!”

     

    It had the desired effect. Akash sat up with a snap, blinking rapidly and looking slightly disoriented. “Wha– half past… shit, I’m late!”

     

    His friend, Harry, laughed as Akash sprung into action, jumping down from the bed, pulling out a t-shirt and jeans from his closet and practically flying into the bathroom to take a shower. Akash would never change. His profession did not suit him, late as he always was for work.

     

    ***

     

    The studio was small by normal standards and was situated in a side street where parking a car was a big issue. The constant flickering of lights as the light-men set up the area and the heat from the bright lights irritated Muskan and gave her a headache.

     

    “This is too much, yaar,” she said in exasperation. “Where’s the bloody photographer?”

     

    Muskan was a fashion designer. She was straight-laced, professional at work and had no patience for unpunctuality. Her friend, Nancy, who was the model for this particular shoot, was comparatively more chilled about everything.

     

    “With our luck, he’s probably dead in a ditch somewhere,” she joked.

     

    Muskan looked at her in shock. “That’s not funny, Nancy. He’s a photographer. He should understand the meaning of time management. If you’re not punctual, then –”

     

    “Yeah, yeah,” said Nancy, cutting her off. “If you’re not punctual, then you don’t understand time management, you’re not serious in life blah blah blah. You and your philosophies, Muskan.”

     

    Muskan huffed and checked her watch. She had really wanted to meet this photographer because they were working together for the first time and she always made it a point to personally acquaint herself with people she worked with. But if she waited another five minutes, she would be late for her meeting and she couldn’t allow that.

     

    “I’m off,” she announced, causing Nancy to look at her in surprise.

     

    “But you haven’t met the guy yet,” protested the model. “Don’t you want to tell him what kind of photographs you want, what kind of angles and lighting…?”

     

    Muskan grabbed her bag. “He knows. We’ve spoken on the phone, Nance. I gotta go, but I’ll see you tomorrow.”

     

    She was out of the door before Nancy could protest anymore. The other woman just did not want to be left alone with the studio crew as they waited for the photographer. Muskan smiled and tried not to feel sorry for her friend as she hurried down the stairs of the rundown building that housed the studio. She almost crashed into a man who seemed to be in a similar hurry to go up and each mumbled a quick sorry to the other before going their own way.

     

    The man was none other than the photographer – Akash. He burst into the studio, panting, and shouted, “Sorry, everyone. I’m here. Let’s get to work.”

     

    ***

     

    The movie theatre was crowded with people. It seemed everyone wanted to see the new Khan movie that had recently come out. Akash lounged on the sofa with his friends, exchanging jokes and jabs as they waited for the movie to begin. Harry sat beside him, his eyes on his mobile phone but his ears paying full attention to their rowdy group of friends. Through the crowd, a familiar face caught Akash’s eye. He shifted around in his seat to get a better view of that face.

     

    “Oooh, never pegged you as one to check girls out,” Harry teased. He was looking up from his phone and his eyes followed Akash’s to the woman at the popcorn counter.

     

    Akash rolled his eyes but kept his gaze on the woman. She was holding a can of coke, a tub of popcorn and was laughing with her friends.

     

    “Think I’ve seen her before somewhere.”

     

    Harry snorted. “If you’re gonna use a line like that, use it on her. Spare me the horror.”

     

    Akash turned his head to look at his friend briefly before finding the woman with his eyes. She was moving away towards another auditorium and Akash felt mild disappointment at knowing they wouldn’t be in the same auditorium.

     

    “It’s not a line,” he said to Harry absently. “I have seen her before.”

     

    “If you say you saw her in your dreams, I’ll kill myself.”

     

    Akash ignored him and continued as if Harry hadn’t spoken at all. “I just don’t remember where.”

     

    A large body blocked his view and he found himself standing up to keep the woman in his view. She was pretty but she wasn’t exceptionally beautiful to warrant such attention from any man. So, Akash didn’t understand the pull he felt towards her.

     

    As if sensing that she was being watched, the woman looked up with a small frown, her eyes quickly sweeping the lounge area. And through the crowd and the distance between them, their eyes met and locked with each other. At first, she was surprised and then she became speculative as she watched Akash, as if she was trying to remember something. Eventually, she shrugged and gave him a tentative smile.

     

    Thoroughly confused but not wanting to seem rude, Akash smiled back at her. Who was that woman?

     

    The auditorium doors opened and her friends pulled her in. Harry waved a hand in front of Akash’s face, breaking him out of his stupor.

     

    “Let’s go, Romeo, movie first, obsessive girl-ogling later.”

     

    Akash scoffed and punched his friend on the shoulder as the group of friends made their way into the auditorium, playfully elbowing people as they pushed ahead.

     

    ***

     

    Muskan sat in her favourite spot in the garden, a cosy little bench directly facing the lake. The cool morning breeze blowing through her hair and the sight of the ducks in the lake calmed and inspired her. Her sketchbook was open in her lap and she lazily sketched one design after another, imagining the dresses come alive before her eyes as she drew them. She frequently took breaks, letting herself close her eyes and breathe in, letting her eyes roam over the lovely green landscape and letting herself enjoy as she worked.

     

    Across the lake was a man photographing the family of ducks floating on the surface of the water. Muskan absently watched him turn this way and that as he tried various angles to shoot from. It was when he lowered his camera from his face that Muskan did a double take. She knew that man. He was standing a bit far but she was pretty sure that it was the same guy from the movie threatre last week. She felt a strange pull in her gut as she watched him. He was speaking to a beggar boy now. He turned away slightly and knelt down, bringing his camera in front of his face and Muskan guessed that he had convinced the little boy to pose for him.

     

    Her sketchbook lay forgotten as she stared at the duo, her eyes soaking up the wonderful scene before her. The boy looked really happy as he turned this way and that, silently obeying the hand gestures and commands the man threw at him. At one point, he laughed out loud at something the man said and the sound somehow carried over to Muskan. She found herself smiling as well.

     

    When the so-called photography session was over, the man gave the beggar boy some money and rumpled his hair. Then he turned his camera to the lake again. He moved the camera around, taking in the entire landscape through his lens and Muskan quickly looked away. When she peeked at him again, his camera was lowered and she felt a jolt at seeing him looking straight at her. It seemed like he had recognized her as well.

     

    She saw him look around and realized that maybe he was looking for a way to get to her side of the lake but Muskan knew this garden like the back of her hand.

    He would have to walk quite a bit before he reached the part from where he could circle back to her side. He looked at her again and she shrugged. Maybe they were being too forward with each other. Maybe they shouldn’t even look at each other like that. They barely knew each other. Muskan had seen him once. Technically, twice or more, if she listened to her gut instinct telling her that she had seen him before the threatre. But that still didn’t mean she could allow him to approach her. He could be a creep.

     

    Maybe he was thinking the same thing. Maybe not. But Muskan saw him shoot her an embarrassed smile. He rubbed the back of his neck in uncertainty and relaxed only when she gave him a small smile. He nodded and turned away. She watched his retreating back for a while before returning to her sketchbook. After a while, when she looked up again, he was gone.

     

    ***

     

    Muskan and Nancy were looking at clothes in a shopping mall. Nancy kept up a constant chatter while Muskan silently perused dresses.

     

    “… and I told her modeling jobs are not easy to come by. I work hard for a living, you know.” Nancy held up a dress for Muskan to see. “What about this?”

     

    Muskan shook her head. “The design’s too loud. I want something subtle, something elegant.”

     

    Nancy coughed and mumbled “thief” under her breath. Muskan narrowed her eyes at her friend and flicked her on the arm. “Hey,” she cried defensively. “I’m just looking for ideas and trying to get inspired. My designs are not stolen!”

     

    Nancy smirked. “Got you.”

     

    Muskan huffed and flipped her the bird. Nancy laughed and wandered off to another shelf where a dress caught her eye. “I’m trying this one out,” she told Muskan before disappearing into the trial rooms.

     

     

    Meanwhile, Akash and Harry were in the trial rooms as well. Akash was standing outside a stall on the other side of which stood Harry, checking himself out in the mirror.

     

    Akash grumbled, “Dude, you took eleven t-shirts in there. Eleven! Are you buying for the whole family or what?”

     

    A shirt flew over the top of the stall door and landed on Akash’s head. He threw it on the floor and glared at it as if it was the very spawn of evil. Harry’s voice echoed throughout the trial room as he replied, “Have patience, little grasshopper. The fruit of patience is sweet.”

     

    Akash slapped a hand to his forehead. “If you don’t come out in five minutes,” he warned. “I’ll leave without you.”

     

    “What’s the rush here?”

     

    “Man,” sighed Akash glumly. “I promised Mrs. D’Souza I would click photos of her dog, Chocho.”

     

    Harry laughed, his loud, clear voice echoing again. “Since when do you photograph domestic animals, Akash?”

     

    “Mrs. D’Souza is my neighbour, yaar. I couldn’t refuse when she asked.” Akash banged his fist on the stall door.  “Remember you have five minutes, loser. And stop laughing.”

     

    He left, Harry’s guffaws following him outside the trial room.

     

    Akash wandered the ladies outfits section aimlessly as he waited for his friend. Out of the corner of his eye, he saw a great looking pair of legs and he stopped in his tracks. Holding his hands up before him in the imitation of a camera, he slowly moved them up the woman’s body to rest on her face.

     

    A soft curse escaped his lips at the sight of his mystery woman. She was standing in front of a mirror, holding a dress to her body as if checking how it would look on her. She noticed him in the mirror, standing behind a shelf and staring at her. She looked torn between being surprised at seeing him or being happy. It eased Akash up a little – at least she wasn’t frowning or calling the cops, claiming Akash was stalking her.

     

    Not knowing what to say or do and slightly embarrassed at being caught staring at her, Akash ultimately pointed to the dress she was holding up and made a face. The woman was initially confused but caught on soon and Akash watched as she put the dress back in its place and held up another for his inspection. Akash wrinkled his nose, silently conveying that this dress was no better.

     

    He decided he was enjoying the game a little too much. His heart fluttered when she picked another dress and judging by the way she tried to fit the dress around her properly, Akash could tell that she really liked it. It was a lovely dress, designed in hues of blues and greens, and it would definitely look stunning on her. When she looked up at him, he grinned and gave her a thumbs up.

     

     

    In the trial rooms, Harry, after finally trying out all eleven t-shirts and settling on the ugliest one, was coming out when he bumped into a soft someone who was leaving as well. She was all dark hair and brown eyes and red lips, and she immediately started apologizing for not seeing him coming. Harry cut her off, not at all interested in her apologies.

     

    “It’s perfectly okay,” he said. “We had to meet. ‘Twas inevitable.”

     

    She looked confused, so he elaborated roguishly, “You’re a woman, I’m a man, you look beautiful, I look like Hritikh Roshan… see? It’s fate. We’re perfect for each other.”

     

    Her brown eyes widened at his blunt attempt at flirting and she stared at him for a few seconds before bursting out into a laugh. “Idiot,” she muttered under her breath, shook her head and turned to leave.

     

    “At least tell me your name,” said Harry, taking a chance.

     

    She stopped and turned. “Nancy,” she said, her voice deliberately throaty. “Nancy Alvares.”

     

    When she left, Harry placed a hand over his heart. Damn!

     

     

    Gaining confidence from their non-verbal conversation, Akash had just taken a step forward to approach the woman and speak to her for real when someone called her.

     

    “Come on, Muskan, let’s go.”

     

    So that was her name. Muskan. She looked at him longingly for a second, then walked away reluctantly, giving him a small, half-hearted wave. Akash stared after her, disappointment heavy in his stomach. When Harry came and waved a hand in front of his face, Akash blinked and glared at him.

     

    “Oh, so you’re done now?”

     

    Harry grinned, Akash’s sarcasm not lost on him. “Come, Chocho must be waiting for you,” he teased.

     

    Akash growled under his breath as Harry dragged him to the cash counter to pay for his t-shirt.

     

    ***

     

    A few days later, both men were at Akash’s house. Akash was sitting with his camera in hand, looking at photos he had recently snapped and Harry was smiling away dopily at his laptop. Curious to see what he was smiling at, Akash leaned over to see the picture of a familiar face on Harry’s screen. Harry was chatting with her on Facebook.

     

    “Nancy Alvares?” said Akash.

     

    Harry looked up in surprise. “You know her?”

     

    “She’s a model. I did her photo shoot a couple of months ago. Where did you meet her?”

     

    “The mall. I went on a date with her,” replied Harry proudly.

     

    Meanwhile, at the same time in Nancy’s house, Nancy was showing Muskan Harry’s Facebook timeline.

     

    “Isn’t he cute?”

     

    Muskan nodded wistfully. “This is nice. You meet once, you go on a date.”

     

    At this end, Akash was telling to Harry, “And in my case, you keep meeting each other and still don’t get a chance to say a single word to one another.”

     

    “What do you mean?” asked Harry.

     

    “There’s a woman…”

     

    “I keep bumping into him time and again,” Muskan was telling Nancy.

     

    “And I just know her first name. Muskan,” said Akash.

     

    “And I don’t even know his name,” said Muskan. She noticed a photo in Harry’s friends list and started. “Hey! That’s him. Oh my gosh, that’s him!”

     

    Nancy shot her a strange look. “Muskan, this is Akash. Our photographer.”

     

    Muskan was shocked. That’s the guy who was late that day, the one she never met because she was in a hurry. They had spoken on the phone a couple of times after that day but they mostly coordinated by email.

    She suddenly remembered one more thing. He was the one she had almost crashed into when going down the stairs. That’s why she had the feeling that she had seen him before. Maybe that’s why he recognized her in the movie theatre as well.

     

    “Akash Sinha,” she said in an awed whisper.

     

    “So this is your dream guy,” teased Nancy.

     

    Muskan blushed. “Yeah, well, he’s not punctual though.”

     

    “You’re crazy.”

     

    ***

     

    It’s like, now that she knew who Akash was and was hoping to run into him again, she saw him everywhere. She saw him in anyone who was strutting around with a camera in hand. Once while she was walking out of an ATM, she saw a guy standing with his back to her, clicking photographs of the traffic and, heart beating wildly, Muskan ran to tap him on the shoulder. He turned out to be someone else and she walked away feeling incredibly stupid. She had his phone number, sure, but she didn’t want to call him and seem too eager. That was not her style, but it took a big effort on her part not to just dial his number like a normal person.

     

    Akash wasn’t faring any better. Since he didn’t know Muskan’s last name, he couldn’t search for her on Facebook or any other social media website because there were a lot of women with the same name running around, Muskan being a common name. Whenever he would hear the name Muskan, he would spin around to check if it was his mystery woman but it never was. He was beginning to feel like an idiot, turning at every mention of a female name.

     

    Harry, meanwhile, was going on dates with Nancy and their relationship seemed to have progressed to them calling each other girlfriend and boyfriend. Akash tried not to be jealous but he was and he couldn’t help it.

     

    Then one day, Harry dragged him to a bookstore on the pretense of wanting to get a book for Nancy’s birthday when in reality, it was all a set up for him to see Muskan again. Nancy had obviously told Harry about her friend Muskan who had a crush on Akash and Harry immediately remembered Akash having the hots for a woman named Muskan, and so both Harry and Nancy hatched a plan to make their friends run into each other again.

     

    Nancy directed Muskan down the aisles and Harry pushed Akash until all four were in standing in the same aisle in the bookstore. Both matchmakers conveniently disappeared once Akash caught sight of Muskan loitering some distance away, looking rather bored as she perused the bookshelves. He was pleasantly surprised to see her there and, wondering if she was real or not, he kept staring at her until she felt his gaze on her and looked up. Her eyes widened and her lips curved into a surprised ‘O’.

     

    There was no way in hell that Akash was letting her go this time. He took a step towards her when a particular book caught his eye. He pulled it out with a grin and held it up for Muskan to see. The book was titled, ‘Have We Met Before?’

     

    Muskan read it and laughed. She held up a finger to indicate that she wanted to play along. Her eyes roved over the books on the shelf until she found what she was looking for and pulled out a book to show Akash. This book was titled, ‘Destiny Plays A Game.’ His grin widened. It was true, and rather obvious that since they kept running into each other, destiny had a big hand in it and perhaps they were meant to be together.

     

    Harry and Nancy watched them from the adjacent aisle, peering through the gap in the bookshelves as their friends engaged in a silly non-verbal conversation. Nancy was giddy and holding back a squeal and Harry was smiling from ear to ear. Finally, his friend would stop pining and be happy. He told the same to Nancy, who giggled and punched his arm.

     

    “Don’t be mean,” she whispered. “Look.”

     

    And they looked as Akash held up another book. It was a beverage recipe book and its cover featured a big cup of coffee. He pointed at the cup of coffee, then at Muskan and at himself. Muskan understood what he was trying to say and she spoke to him for the first time –

     

    “Yes.”

     

    She walked towards him and Akash met her halfway, both of them smiling foolishly and neither caring about it at all. They were together and that’s all that mattered. Later, they would shower Harry and Nancy with gifts of gratitude but for now, they had a coffee date to go on.

  • The festival of spirits

    The festival of spirits

    Imagine if you could meet someone in a festival after they have left this world. But wait. will you be able to find it…? 

     

    60 years old. Unmarried. In love with the spirit of my love. Well if you’ll allow me then I’ll be happy to recite the tale of this old hag’s life journey; just let me sit down first.

    This place is called Gonda. Every year on the 15th day of the sacred lunar month, a grand festival takes place here. The festival of the spirits. As absurd as it may sound, it is true. Though it is believed to take place every year but the place it is held at changes and after five years it comes back here. So I have been coming to Gonda to enjoy this festival for 30 years, this is my seventh time here.

                                                                                                    . . .

    “You came” Dai came from behind a tree looking happy yet sad.

    “Of course” I smiled back.

                                                                                                    . . .

    35 years ago

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    “Come on Mai you can hit it!” shouted my friend at the top of her voice from behind me.

    BANG!

    And it hit.

    “YEAH!” we both rejoiced on winning a big stuffed rabbit at the shooter stall. I and Kiki loved to go to festivals together. We’d play all the games and eat from all the stalls and return home with empty pockets. Thankfully our parents weren’t here to strangle us for that. We lived away from our homes in pgs. to attend college. We were research and development students at the moment and whenever there would be a festival, we would be there to go on a rampage.

    “Mai let’s try the slot machine now!!!” Kiko’s eyes gleamed with joy.

    “What? They have a slot machine to?! I am in love with this festival in particular now!”

    As we positioned ourselves and struck the handle we held our breaths in and crossed our fingers. We weren’t exactly good students at the academy, but what we were good at was luck. We were always so lucky. And with that as the chattering of the slot machine clicked and displayed three same figures one after the other we practically went crazy with joy. A lot of coins rained down from the machine as I and Kiko hugged each other tightly while jumping and shouting at the same time. Suddenly we heard a click and a flash.

    When I turned around I saw a tall young man wearing a jeans and a shirt with the camera placed over his face and a big grin underneath.

    “Excuse me…” Kiko called out to him in an uncertain tone. “Did you just click our photo?”

    “Ah yes. I am sorry let me introduce myself” he replied as he quickly put away his camera in a sling bag and came forward to shake hands with us. “My name is Dai. Nice to meet you. I am the official photographer of this festival and as you are the first ones to get a perfect score on the slot machine; I took a picture.”

    We looked a little uneasily at the man in front of us. Now that his face was in view I could see that he was decent looking and neat although his hair was spikey it was still in a little mess. But the main part was his eyes. He had beautiful eyes that looked pure and innocent. But that was just a feature of his face it didn’t prove that was speaking the truth at the moment.

    “Don’t worry these pictures are going to be with the manager of the event only.” He tried assuring us.

    “Fine” we replied and took our money and left for the food stalls.

    After a couple of days it was time for our own collage’s fest. We were all hyped really up. Girls were making a ruckus about what to wear even though things were pre-decided and boys… well we hoped they would at least wear something other than sweat pants and jerseys.

    After a few hours in the fest we started taking pictures but as the crowd grew it became hard to take selfies. While about 10 of us were trying our best to fit into a single frame we heard a click and saw a camera flash on us and felt a wave of déjà vu wash over me. It was the same guy from that evening.

    “Are you following us?” Kiko almost shrieked out in partial fear and rest disgust.

    “Of course not!” he retaliated with an offended expression, “I am Dai, a freelance photographer that your collage has hired for this fest!” he introduced himself with a frown.

    “Are you sure you’re not lying?” I eyed his suspiciously.

    “What is wrong with the girls these days? It’s not like you guys are miss worlds or something of that sort. And I am just doing my work-“

    “What did you just say?” A dark aura suddenly possessed the girls, maybe the ‘not miss world’ phrase made them snap and Dai seemed to have a good idea as to where he had screwed up.

    “Not miss worlds BUT you all look stunning at the moment which is why I could not resist taking you picture!” Dai hurried through the sentence and started clicking pictures of the crowd of girls that were about to attack him. “Yes just like that! Beautiful! Enchanting!” All this flattering and commotion settled the girls down if not pleased them immensely.

    “That guy has a certain tact” Kiko said coming us to me as we watched all the girls’ line up for the photo session.

    “Yeah maybe” I said eyeing him. To be honest I was a bit curious about him. There was a certain air about him that was really attractive.

    Later that evening when Kiko went away for a bit Dai came over for a chat.

    “So we meet again, want to see the pictures?” he asked in a friendly and almost kiddish tone.

    “Why? The freelancer wants some praise?” I teased.

    “Well now that I know that you already believe my work is worth praising then I suggest you do the same after seeing it” and he clicked on his display before I could frame a back answer and the first picture made me gasp in amazement.

    It was the festival from before and it was beautiful.

    “This is not how I saw it that day…” I could hear the amusement in my voice as it drifted away in a whisper.

    “Well now you have.”

    As I went through pic after pic I felt a weird feeling building up. Every picture looked more beautiful than the one before.

    “So?” he asked excitedly

    “I don’t have the words to express how beautiful these photos were.” I could hear Dai chuckle when I said this. It seemed that he loved to be praised and so I ended with just one thing,

    “Thank you for showing them to me.” And I smiled at him. This suddenly made him serious. It seemed like he did not expect to be thanked for something like that but that was exactly how the pictures had made me feel.

    “Thank you for seeing them properly” he said and maybe I think I saw him blush a little as he lowered his head. We sat there silently until Kiko came back.

    “Hey Mr.Dai our director is calling for you. You need to click some photos there.” She told him quickly and pulled me along to go somewhere else.

    “Bye!” I waved at him as Kiko pulled me with her full force.

    “Bye Bye! He waved back.

     

                                                                                                    . . .

    That was the first time we actually spoke to each other and maybe the first time we well in love as well. But we would understand this only after a lot of time would have passed. I wished we had understood it at the very moment so we could have had a few more days together.

    The next five years flew by in a blink. We felt like the happiest people alive. Every day felt new and the fun never ended. I finished my studies and joined a research firm while Dai went on from becoming a freelancer to a well-known professional. We couldn’t ask for anything more. And finally decided a date to marry.  But what we could not foresee was death.

    Dai fell ill suddenly and none of the doctors could tell why. His organs had started to malfunction and the whole thing only kept speeding up. So much that soon the doctors lost the race as well and so did Dai.

    On the day of our proposed marriage, I lay flowers on Dai’s grave. As despair started taking over me, I closed myself shut in my- our new house. Until one day I accidently stumbled over Dai’s diary. I never knew he used to write one.

    I sat down with the book near the window and started reading through the pages. They were filled with fun observations he made while freelancing till he met me. The first entry about me was when I had thanked him. He called me an odd girl for that. After that, entry after entry, he wrote about observations made only about me. It talked about his days with me. He had written details of all our encounters. In the end there were a few photos among which I found the photo of me and Kiko when we won at the slot machine.

    “So you lied about the photo remaining with just the manager…” I couldn’t help it as a tear trickled off my cheek. But reading this diary gave me a lot of courage. I had been forgetting something really important.

    We live for the ones we love. I decided I won’t lock myself up anymore. I’ll live his part as well. And I won’t lie to myself as well. I wanted to see him again. Once more. And I had a good idea where to start.

    One of my friends was a strange fellow. The research assignment he had taken for himself was about the festival of spirits. No one encouraged him of course, but he was never demotivated by that. For some reason he never left that research and continued his search. I called him up and asked if I could become a part of his research team and he seemed more than happy to take me in.

    But it was not easy to find something like this. We started reading about demons and spirits of all kinds. After five long years of research and failure we finally got some hope. We estimated a time, date, day and place for the festival of spirits. But the place was not limited to one so we split up. Three places were estimated. I chose to go to Gonda, it was a really small town quite far from where we lived at the moment.

                                                                                                    . . .

     

    “Ma’am I would suggest you to not go out at this time” the manager of the inn I was staying at warned me when check in the reception before leaving.

    “Well it is part of my job” I said as I headed out the door. But from where was I supposed to start?

    This inn was situated in the most remote part of Gonda and only mountains and trees were visible from where I was standing. Going inside the forest at this time was not a good idea but I had no choice. This was the only chance I had. As I started walking through the wild plants I couldn’t help but feel a little uneasy. As time passed by a strange chill filled the air. I had come quite a long way when suddenly a bush near me started moving.

    “What that!” I almost shrieked out in fear and a wild boar came from behind the bushes. Standing in front of it I could hear my heart pounding but I was too scared to move. The boar seemed almost like a hungry wolf; bloodshot eyes and ready to attack. Suddenly I realized that I had to move before it pounced but it jumped and I ducked instinctively. The next thing I heard was a loud yelp from the boar and it ran away. I got up quickly and saw an old man standing behind me with a few stone in one hand.

    “Are you all right miss?” He asked as he helped me get up.

    “Thank you…” this seemed more dangerous than the boar. ‘What was this old man doing in the forest at this time?’

    “Are you looking for Gonda festival?” he asked smiling widely, “Oh yes you are!”

    “Uh…”

    “Follow me. I am going there too.”

    “Wait, how did you know?” maybe the tiredness of my journey was kicking in and I was hallucinating now about how I’d like some help.

    “Your eyes with burning with a desire.” He replied pointing at me. “Are you going to meet up someone there?”

    “Yes…”

    Yes I wanted to meet someone. And suddenly it seemed like I was on the right track, climbing the right mountain, going in the right direction. Whoever this old man was, his every word was like a blessing.

    “Take me with you!”

    After a short walk we started walking on a totally different path and entered deeper into the forest. A faint music slowly filled our ears and the air became warmer. Right in front a light started emerging from behind one of the trees and the moment we went around that tree the whole look of the forest changed.

    Paper windmills, food stalls, game stalls, musicians, dancers, lights… It was a festival. The festival really existed and it was filled with people. There were little children running and playing and young people laughing, also some old people were sitting near the stalls. But people weren’t the only ones enjoining the fest. There were other… things too. On looking closely one looked like a big lizard man and another had an antenna on its head.

    “What are they?” I whispered to the old man beside me who had been waiting patiently for me to get a little accustomed to what lay in front.

    “Demons and spirits of nature” he said with a smug look. And suddenly his ears started growing till they were big enough to touch the ground. “Hi! I am one of the spirit of stones. Nice to meet you”

    All I could do was stare at him in amazement. Although I should have been afraid but after reading about them for so many years it actually felt amazing to see them up close. “Hello” I smiled back and shook his hands.

    “I think you should start searching for whatever you came here. The time is running out” he urged me and pushed me into the crowd.

    “Yes but I-“ The moment I turned around he was gone. ‘Looks like I am on my own now’ I thought to myself and started going around the festival but I could not see Dai anywhere. At the end of the festival there was a small temple. This was probably where the spirits were worshiped through the year. I had read about it in one of the research papers that these festivals are held only near temples and shrines where spirits are worshipped for it becomes a sacred and comfortable place for them to come together.

    But all that did not matter. I had to find Dai, but looking around I saw no hope. This definitely was where I wanted to be but how was I supposed to find him? I turned towards the temple and closed my eyes.

    ‘Was I supposed to pray…?’ at this moment I was ready to do about anything to see him but did not know what I was supposed to say to God.

    ‘Dai…’ all I could do was stand there and think about him as tears welled up in my eyes. ‘Where are you…?’ I sat down on the ground feeling helpless. The festival seemed to be coming to an end already.

    “MAI…” A faint voice came from behind me. “Mai. Is that Mai?! Mai is that you?!”  The voice approached quickly before I could turn around and I felt the embrace of two really familiar hands.

    “Dai…?” I whispered back. “How did you find me?”

    “What are you talking about? You found me. And you even called out to me.” He replied wiping off my tears that were now flowing uncontrollably. “I am sorry…”

    We hugged each other as tightly as we could and remained silent for the rest of the time. Slowly the festival started fading away and I saw the old man from before smile at me before disappearing into thin air.

    “I’ll have to leave now” Dai spoke softly and we finally got up from the ground. “Mai can you keep a promise?” he asked in low voice.

    “What?”

    “Forget about me. I am not coming back and you have your life ahead of you. That is why-“

    “I won’t forget you. Ever. I’ll come here again next time and we will enjoy the festival together so you go now.” As the first streak of dawn broke out, Dai’s presence started fading away and soon I was standing there alone. But getting to see him once more had filled me up with all the courage I needed and so I started living my life with five year interval plans. Every 5th year I would go up to the mountains in Gonda and meet Dai.

                                                                                                    . . .

    Current time

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    “It seems like the next time I come here I’ll be dead to” I joked.

    “Well, then I’ll take you home when that time comes” Dai replied back. And our seventh meeting ended that night.

     

  • True Love?

    True Love?

    How many of us really know what love feels like? 

     

    ‘Are you sure you’re okay?’

    I asked my best friend, one last time before she stepped out of the cab.

    ‘I will be.’

    Payel picked up her office bag and slowly got out. After she shut the door, the cab took off. I looked back at her through the window to see her walking up to her office building. She looked fine.

    No one would really be able to tell that she spent last night drinking and crying horribly after she received a call from her boyfriend of 7 years. He’s her ex-boyfriend now.

    Payel is my childhood friend and she has been like a sister to me since high school. We have always been super close to each other, sharing way too much with each other than we probably should. I have seen her as a handful of guys paraded in and out of her life. She had always been a strong yet reckless person who loved playing with fire. She knew herself very well and was always so frank about herself, it often intimated people, and I loved that about her.

    This also attracted the attention of Ritesh, and soon they became the one popular couple in college, who made everyone jealous. I had been dating guys here and there too, but I never had that amazing chemistry and friendship that Ritesh and Payel shared. Everyone knew they were definitely going to get married and have lots of kids. There was not a single person who knew them and didn’t wish them well.

    They were the reason I believed in a true love. They were the only ones who made me feel like there is a soulmate for every single person out there. You should consider yourself very lucky if you ever come across yours in this lifetime. I believed Payel and Ritesh were the luckiest among all the people who ever found their soul mates. But I couldn’t say the same anymore.

    I have seen them together for so long that it was hard for me to accept the conversation they both had over the phone last night. You might think that this was probably some setback and they would make up soon and everything would go back to normal. But I was there with Payel, hearing her shouting and sobbing, and watching all my hopes for them fall apart. I can’t even imagine what Payel must have been going through at that point of time.

    I had never seen her break down like this before. I could almost hear her heart breaking by the way she was talking to him. It was so hard for me to see her like that. I could understand that that one phone conversation is going to completely change her life as she knows it. And I hated that.

    I had made a point to have a word with Ritesh about this. He was also a very good friend and even though Payel had reassured many times that there was no way to reverse this, I still wanted to hear it from him too. I wanted some benefit of doubt.

    I kept thinking over and over again – is this what true love looks like? Can it really break people like this? All the famous romantic poets who wrote about love and their beloved, are those really true? Does something like an immortal love really exist? I hardly believed in what I read in literature, but I had seen a beautiful love story unfold in front of my eyes. I didn’t need old poets to tell me what true love looks like. But now, I wasn’t so sure anymore.

    All these thoughts kept bouncing around in my head as the cab eventually reached the mall nearest to my house. After paying the driver, I walked in to buy some more stock of Payel’s favourite food and drink – ice cream and wine. Well, they were my favourite too.

    I looked around to find the ones Payel absolutely loved and made sure I got lots and lots of those. Red wine and black current ice cream are basically her life support and I want to make sure she has enough of them whenever she needs them.

    I decided to walk back home from there because my house was pretty close.

    On my way home, I couldn’t help but think how I’ll never see Payel and Ritesh together again. They had started to reach a point in their lives where their dreams of a future together were finally coming true. Everything was going absolutely fine, till last night. I was feeling very down thinking about everything.

    It was when I realised that I need to start walking faster when I noticed something on the side of the lane that made me stop.

    I knew there were many street dogs around in this locality but I’ve never seen so many of them gather at one place like this. I saw a middle aged lady standing in front of the gate of her building and calling the dogs. The group of dogs was getting bigger and bigger and then I saw another middle aged man walking out. He came and stood beside the lady with two big bowls of rice. The excitement of the dogs were clear from the way they all started wagging their tails.

    I walked closer to the scene and saw that the bowls had rice and some chicken in them. As the man was putting down the two bowls, the lady went back in and came out balancing four more bowls. Some of the dogs yelped in happiness and got busy eating. There were different bowls for the different dogs and they seemed to know very well which was for them.

    The couple looked like proud happy parents of all these dogs. They hugged them and patted them as they were eating. Some of the dogs came to lick their faces in between their meals. The parents looked down on the dogs as they enjoyed their meals. They even scolded the one or two naughty ones who were trying to pick from the other dog’s bowl.

    The couple sat down on the ground among the dogs and peacefully watched them eat, patting them here and there. The dogs loved their company and started to playfully run around them after their meals were over. The man had some balls in the pockets of the pants he was wearing and he gave it to the dogs to play with them.

    I realised there were two more guys standing near me looking at the same scene and smiling to themselves. I was smiling too. Seeing those playful happy dogs with this lovely couple – it was so beautiful and warm.

    After looking at them for a while, I decided that my ice cream was on the verge of melting, so I had to run home.

    The scene didn’t look like it was happening for the first time, it looked like a daily thing. I don’t usually use that lane at this time of the day, otherwise I would’ve definitely noticed them before. And I am so glad I did today. It really warmed me up after spending the night with Payel like that.

    It also got me thinking about this strange concept of love.

    All these years of seeing two people being hopelessly in love and being convinced that this is what true love looks like. And after last night, I am not sure of anything anymore. They loved each other for so long, I’ve seen it! How could something so bad exist that break up two people so sourly?

    But now I see these dogs and this couple. They’re like such a sweet family, it’s so beautiful. It was so nice to see this couple taking in and looking after all these dogs that most people neglect and don’t care about.  Not only just caring about them, but treating them like their own children, talking to them and playing with them. And the way the dogs were playing with them, if that’s not love, I don’t know what is.

    We all pretend to know a lot about love. Poets and famous literary figures have written so many things about it. But how many of us know what true love really feels like?

  • Will you be my better half?

    Will you be my better half?

    This story is about how long distance relationships can work and what is really needed is only mutual trust and patience. 

     

    The train had stopped at the Nagpur station. She had very clear memories of spending some precious minutes with him.

    It had been six long years. It was a very long time period for her to patiently wait for him. Things might have changed since then. He might have found someone else. He even might have forgotten her. Maybe he was not coming to meet her also. She was very afraid. Afraid of seeing the change that she might not be able  to gulp down her throat. She still remembered his oval shaped face with his favourite navy blue glasses and those well shaped teeth giving her always a million dollar smile. Suddenly she got reminded of someone's quote.

     

    "Don't expect anything from anyone. Just do your work with full dedication and perseverance. You will surely get what you want. "

     

    But that is not how relationships work. The weighing balance must weigh equal on both sides. The needle must keep oscillating constantly.

     

    And she was a Homo sapien, not a saint. She expected a lot from him. She was afraid of the disbalance of the weighing balance.

     

    She waited so long for this moment and was yearning to see him. All those days and nights of endless conversations and making of promises would now answer her. The longing for just holding each others hands was too much for her to feel. Too much of suffocation had made her finally let loose her senses and leave everything for going for him.

     

    He had promised to meet her at the station and spend a little time with her. She was traveling for a business trip from her office to Mumbai. She had told him to come to Nagpur to just look at his glasses and his smile. Hoping for him to be still the same. Keeping her fingers crossed. All those years had really scared the crap out of her. She hoped for the good.

     

    Her phone was suddenly ringing with an irritating beep sound. He had texted her.

     

    "I am here. Will meet within the next 5 minutes."

     

    Hannah looked out of the window of her seat with a lot of anticipation. She was feeling restless. She would see him now at any moment.

     

    The dirty Nike shoes had changed into polished black shoes. The loose shirts and jeans were replaced with a suit. That complacent smile was replaced with a stern look and a faint smile. And the blue frames had gone now. Only frameless glasses were resting on his nose. He walked like a perfect corporate office employee. He made his way through the crowd and got into my coach. B-3. She saw him moving with a royal gait.   Hannah called him.

     

    "Jose! Jose! Where are looking? Here! I am here!"

     

    She waved her hand at him. He came to her and gave her a smile. She helped him to get to the upper berth seat. They both sat beside each other. Silent for almost ten minutes. Hannah was trembling like a dead leaf that was about to fall from a tree. She was nervous to start a conversation with him. He croaked.

     

    "I have only half an hour Hannah. I had got something for you. I couldn't talk about it all this while with you. I hope you will understand."

     

    She was staring at him. He handed her an envelope and a cube shaped box. The box was wrapped with a shiny golden paper. The weighing balance was losing the balance now.

     

    "Open it after I leave."

     

    Hannah was confused. She was left in a dreadful suspense. She felt afraid more now. She couldn't hold the envelope. So many thoughts rushed through her mind. Is he going to reject me? Or is it his marriage invitation card? Am I not a part of his life now? Why is he not able to say that he doesn't want me anymore? She calmed down somehow and put it in her bag.

     

    Jose started talking about what he was doing and how he was busy with his job. Hannah looked at him talking incessantly and listened to him patiently. He unlocked his phone with a bizarre pattern and showed all sorts of photos of his office campus and the places he had visited. Then he talked about his roommates at his dormitory. And then about his elephant headed roommate who bothered him always.

     

    Out of the blue, Jose's phone started vibrating. It was his alarm for leaving. Time had flown by like a bullet train. The train had stopped at his station. It was Indore. He got down from the upper berth and smiled at Hannah.

     

    "Come with me till the gate."

     

    Hannah got down and walked him out of the coach. He got down at the platform and said something Hananh had not expected at all.

     

    "You have not changed at all. You are still the silent listener. Why don't you talk? Please don't forget to open up that envelope and the box. Okay then, I am leaving. I am getting late. Bye Hannah!"

     

    Those sparkling shoes faded away into the crowd at the platform 6. She couldn't listen to the tapping of his shoes. He had changed a lot. He had changed so much that she felt numb and deaf.

     

    The half an hour was like half a minute. Half a minute had taken away her soul from her body. When the whistle of the train was sharp enough for her to hear, she regained her senses. The train started moving. She quickly got back to her seat, opened her bag and tore open her envelope.

     

    A hard grey coloured card was inside it. Her heart skipped a beat. She couldn't wait. She flipped through the card and found something written in a familiar cursive handwriting.

     

    "Will you be my better half?"

     

    Hannah was ecstatic. She opened up the box to find out what he had got for her. But she found something that was totally different from her expectation. There was a neatly folded chit in it. She unfolded it.

     

    "Don't expect me to be a romantic fool. Obviously it is not a ring. :p I love you Hannah. Call me. I am waiting for your reply. Don't make me wait any longer. Six years were too long."