EVERYTHING’S OVER, ALL HOPES ARE LOST.NOTHING’S LEFT. I’M IN RUINS NOW.ONCE, WHEN I HOPED FOR SHOWERS OF GRACE,NOW, ONE BY ONE, EVERYTHING’S BEING THROWN DEEP DOWN. ONCE, WHEN I DREAMT OF SPREADING LOVE, I NOW STAND ALONE, ALL ALONE IN MY MELANCHOLIC REALM.ONCE, WHEN I WANDERED ACROSS BLOOMING CULTURES, ONCE, WHEN MY THOUGHTS WERE BLUE AND PURE, I NOW SUFFER ETERNAL SORROW, I’M TRAPPED IN A DUNGEON.I DESIRED LOVE AND EQUALITY.BUT THIS WORLD HAS BEEN ON ITS OWN, I’M DOOMED NOW.MY LIFE HAS BEEN WILD, IT HAS BEEN A HORROR.IN FEAR OF REVEALING WHO I AM. I GAVE UP ON MYSELF.DEEPLY SUBMERGED IN SECRETS, I LOST MY FAMILY.A NAIL HAMMERED TO THE HEART. I WAS DEAD INSIDE.ONCE A LIVELY-FRIENDLY GUY, NOW IN LIFELESS ASHES.I WAITED DEEP DOWN IN THE CAGE, SEEKING SALVATION FROM THE DARK.YET, NOBODY CAME, I’M IN RUINS NOW.EARLIER YEARS WERE HEAVEN. THE BEST OF MY LIFE.I FOUND HAPPINESS IN SIMPLICITY.NOW, WHO I AM. WHERE I DID GO. I WAS ALL LOST.FRIENDS, FAMILY. THE ESSENCE OF LOVING AND GETTING LOVE,EVERYTHING NOW BURIED DEEP DOWN BELOW THE ROOTS OF HELL.NOBODY TO TALK TO, NOBODY TO LOVE,THIS LIFE IS NOW MY BURDEN, A LIABILITY.TRULY, I AM A CURSE TO MY LOVED ONES.A LIFE OF HAPPINESS, WHY CAN’T I, AIN’T IA HUMAN, WHAT AM I? AM I A DEVIL’S OFFSPRING, FOR SO MUCH SO I’M BEING HATED? IN SEARCH OF JOY, I SOUGHT PLEASURES OF THE DARK.WHEN WILL I DIE, WHEN WILL ALL OF THIS END?PERHAPS, THIS IS MY PENANCE. TO LIVE THE BEAUTY OF PAIN.PERHAPS, THIS IS MY DESTINY, TO LOSE FAITH IN MYSELF.I HAVE FAILED MYSELF, I CAN’T HELP MYSELF.MY FLAWS WERE DESTINED BY GOD THE FATHER.SOMEHOW, I WAS BLIND, TO SEE THROUGH MYSELF.AFTER ALL, WHEN HAVE I EVER BEEN IN THEIR GOOD BOOKS?WHEN HAVE I EVER BEEN IN THEIR GOOD BOOKS?
Jun 19
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