SHE BROUGHT ME A CUP OF CHAI AND WE SAT TOGETHER ON THE COUCH AND WITNESSED THE BEAUTIFUL MOON SHINING TO ITS BRIGHTEST. AFTER A WHILE, SHE BROKE THE SILENCE AND ASKED ME WITH A SMILE AND HER HEAD ON MY SHOULDERS, “HOW WAS YOUR DAY? YOU LOOK PRETTY TIRED.”
I COULD SEE THAT SHE WANTS THE GENUINE ANSWER ”IT WAS A QUITE ROUGH DAY AT WORK”. I SAID ” YOU KNOW BEING AN INTERN AT A BIG FIRM IS NOT AN EASY JOB. TODAY THE WORKLOAD WAS A LOT AND THE DAY WAS HECTIC AS HELL. ” SHE SMILED IN EMPATHY AND LEFT THE CONVERSATION THERE. I TOOK A GLANCE AT HER AND CAUGHT HER SMILING. I COULDN’T HELP MYSELF BUT ASK “WHY ARE YOU SMILING?” I LOVE TO WATCH HER SMILE LIKE THAT BUT SOMEHOW, I JUST ALWAYS WANTED TO KNOW THE REASON BEHIND IT.
“I JUST CANNOT STOP THINKING ABOUT THE FACT THAT HOW CRAZY YOU WERE BEFORE ABOUT THIS JOB AND NOW WHEN YOU ARE WORKING THERE YOU SEEM TIRED ALL THE TIME.”, SHE SAID.
SHE HAS BEEN WITH ME SINCE COLLEGE, SHE HAS SEEN ALL MY UPS AND DOWNS, AND MY LOVE FOR THIS JOB. IT WAS MY DREAM JOB AT THAT TIME. AND WHEN WE GRADUATED FROM COLLEGE LAST MONTH, I APPLIED FOR THE INTERNSHIP, IT FELT LIKE AS IF EVERY PUZZLE PIECE WAS SLOWLY FALLING INTO PLACE.
AFTER HEARING THIS KIND OF REMARK FROM HER ON MY JOB, SOMETHING CLICKED IN MY CONFUSION AND DOUBTS, AND TO CLEAR IT UP I ASKED HER. “WHAT MADE YOU SAY THAT? IS IT JUST THE TIREDNESS OF WORK OR IS THERE SOMETHING ELSE?” SHE HESITATED, AND THEN SAID, “YOU LOOK LIKE SOMEONE WHO IS DOING THE JOB JUST FOR THE SAKE OF IT. IT FEELS LIKE YOU ARE NOT ENJOYING YOUR WORK COMPLETELY.”
SHE WAS RIGHT, TO AN EXTENT AND THEN IT HIT ME AGAIN WITH A CLEAR VISION. WHEN I WAS JUST CRAZY ABOUT THIS JOB, I NEVER REALISED THAT I WASN’T CRAZY ABOUT THE WORK BUT THE ”JOB’‘. THE NAME AND THE REPUTATION OF THE COMPANY THAT IT HOLDS IN THE FIELD THAT I WAS ALSO A PART OF.
I DID ”LOVE” THE JOB BECAUSE I NEVER THOUGHT THIS THROUGH, AND NEVER TRIED TO UNDERSTAND THE WORKLOAD AND THE RESPONSIBILITY IT WILL BRING ALONG. THEY SAY THAT THE 2 AM CONVERSATIONS OFTEN MAKE YOU REALISE THINGS THAT YOU OTHERWISE REFUSE TO NOTICE. THE SAME THING HAPPENED. I GOT MY ANSWER THAT TO BE HAPPY AT WORK, I SHOULD LOVE MY WORK. IN THAT WAY EVEN IF MY LIFE WOULDN’T PERFECT AT LEAST I WILL BE HAPPY BECAUSE I WILL BE DOING SOMETHING THAT I LOVE. THEN EVEN THE WORKLOAD WILL FEEL LIKE A CHALLENGE AND A STEP TOWARDS MY GROWTH. I CAN NOW FINALLY CHOOSE WHAT I WANT TO DO AND FIGURE OUT THINGS MORE LOGICALLY AND ACCORDING TO MY INTERESTS.
I WANT TO THANK HER FOR BEING BY MY SIDE. SOMETIMES THE PEOPLE YOU LOVE GIVE YOU THE MOST IMPORTANT ADVICE IN THE SUBTLEST WAY THAT IT CHANGES YOUR WHOLE PERSPECTIVE OF OURS. I JUST WISH THAT SHE STAYS WITH ME LIKE THIS AND WE CAN SIMPLY JUST HELP EACH OTHER GROW.