First Failure

It was a pleasant evening. Well, not so pleasant for me, my results had to be announced that very evening. I had given  CA Foundation Exam almost two months back. This was an intense moment for me, beads of sweat poured down my forehead. Yes, I was that tensed for my result. I desperately wanted to clear this. Alot of people’s expectations were weighing down my shoulders which built up the pressure even more. 

Suddenly, I received a notification on Whatsapp, declaring the fact that results had been published on portal. My heartbeat went on thousand times faster, I could literally hear it. I took my laptop and immediately hopped onto checking my result. Hundreds of notifications  popping on my mobile, each feeling like a heavy tremor in my chest. All of the them were the exclamations of students who were in joy that their hardwork had paid off. It was an environment of celebration among them.

It turned out to be an evening to forget for me. Yes, I failed it. The unfortunate had happened to me and it hit me like a fast bus on a walking street. For a milli second, I had no idea about how to react, I felt miserable and utterly disappointed. My elder brother and my mother viewed the result with me. They instantly started consoling me and that is exactly when I began to sob like a two year old. It was one of the most painful experiences for me. Fearful of how I was taking the result, my mother called my father to handle me as she feared I might hang myself. 

My father likes to make an entrance, he firstly tried to talk to me via phone. He laughingly reminded me of an inspiring scene of a movie we recently watched. The scene where the protagonist of the movie had also failed and goes to party with his friends so that he does not forget that day. That was the day he chose to get over himself and to start working even harder. Anyways, coming out of the movie scene, it was not like that for me, it just stopped me from sobbing and crying continuously which was a moment of relief for my mother.

It was that moment I had no idea of what I wanted to in my life. All my life I thought I wanted to be a CA but life had it otherwise for me. I got better from that shock, it had to settle in me eventually. My father still came home form work early that day just to check on how I was doing. We had a light discussion and he made sure that I was doing okay. Finally, I gathered some courage and opened my phone. There were literally thousands of texts from friends. They knew that I had failed or they would have received the reply then and there. 

Anyways, to sum up, I am doing fine and I got over it with time. First failures hit hard and I smile every time I remember that day. Life is full of ups and downs right?